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From the book "ZOS
SPEAKS: Encounters With Austin Osman Spare" by Kenneth and
Steffi Grant.
Wisdom is a stasis: Knowledge is like the 'snake of
eternity', constantly eating itself and never finishing.
More bathos: connexity of all our bloody selves to Ego is a
nightmare commanded by the overlooked, unobeyed latencies of
return, essential for re-union.
Ego expands by that which evokes mutual effluxes; therefore look
for the Theocentric in the Egocentric.
If God personalizes our deficiencies, then, we thus personify
his?
Subject understanding object by 'as if' may become, with
courage, an ingressive emotional experience giving mutual
expression.
Falsehood, and all sham conceits, are the reflected memory of
the de-related and forgotten event resurging, re-exhibiting for
validation; for whatever you pretend, holds a misplaced Truth,
i.e., inaccurately related time and place. This also is true of
the future. Time here is long…
Of whom do we ask forgiveness when we hate ourselves?
Our urges are ever ubiquitous, affinities change, and Knowledge
becomes redundant.
Never too old to learn, always too old to be taught.
If all realization is by our relatability to different
co-existences, then making the more variable is one purpose of
being.
The Life-force and the Ids have their logic, which does not
preclude our having our own diversity of will. There is virtue
in all non-conformity because it makes new forms.
Ecstasy is our out-span touching Reality. It is a potent
generative instant having a surplus that, when synchronized, may
be used abstractly to incarnate another wish.
There is honesty of purpose in virility.
We are ever ultimate and all ultimates ultimately sublimate
in Auto-Ego.
I ask, what is conceivable when we cannot conceive even what we
are conceiving?
The mocking Ape, the smiling God, both beckon and will endow.
Thrice did I slip backwards into strange forms of myself, and
thrice did my Soul save me.
Much is realized that seldom can be expressed and when it might
be told—dissolves.
Mind, body, ego and all things are formulated from desire; to
desire forever…
Within the Alphabet lies all the arbitrary abracadabra of our
knowledge.
The dominant difference between each of us, and between all of
us and the animal kingdom is a degree of 'ability', of instinct
become 'personal', arbitrary. Outstanding ability shows
affective psychic union.
Art alone having the gift of tongues has universal
understanding, hence to know its fundaments is the initial path
to Wisdom and Knowledge.
However great your reach, whatever you touch, shall touch flesh.
We cannot love love too much when we find it.
There is a self-revelation by a simple cryptic symbol: the
meaning of all meanings. Think well before you drain this Cup of
intoxicating possibilities.
When our aspirations become as inexorable as affection, the mind
will divulge techniques and media.
Heaven makes no moral laws, but gives us instincts towards
rightness and virtue.
The danger of the dynamic mind is that it seeks all kinds and
degrees of complexity: fundamentals are a lost purpose in this
forest of detail.
Let us desire no better pantheon than the zoomorphic in which to
find a place: better to venerate our animal ancestry (until
fully human), then the least attainable and most unknowable will
disclose our next step.
However incompatible discoveries may be they always conform to
the processes of ultimate inductions from our inherent designing
ability.
The mind has no known purpose except that which it surmises from
previous conations; all our motives are thus related processes
springing from a basic urge deep within us and manifesting as
Self-love.
Thinking is an inverse reflection of emotional needs, its
resultants being changed by some other immediacy.
Abortive and extreme metamorphoses occur when Man slips into
excessive evil or good. There is that theurgy in Will when all
desires focus into one meanness or greatness.
Reversion is often the road to perversion, and the disused or
abused degenerates unless transposed to another purpose.
Love shall cease when copulation is abjured.
Things more excellent than themselves are expressed through Art
when our selves are expressed in them.
The artist illumines unseen beauties and awakens us to the
utility of beauty as pleasure of a more permanent kind.
We conceive from the whole until detail destroys.
To know the fundaments of Art is to know the path of all wisdom.
What does not exist Man will invent or imagine.
Much is realized and so seldom expressed that when it might be
told it is already forgotten.
The self-glory of our forgiveness of ourselves and others—these
are our failures.
Emotional depth can bestow originality of expression.
We find in Art experiences missed in life.
Art is the coinage whereby we exchange emotional experience for
creative life.
All artistic creation is subjective truth in that it relates to
lesser known experiences.
Insincerity is an easy form of escape.
One function of Art is to make something more like or unlike
itself than it appears.
Of beauty there is no finality; it confirms our inner sense of
perfection which changes less than we do.
Over-modesty permits the unworthy to seek our company.
Vicious circle: Fear as the offspring of fearing to face things.
Our near relatives are the greatest insurance against belief in
ourselves.
When Art is wanting the beast is superior.
The one constancy in life is change, yet the becoming or going
is seldom pleasant.
Birth and death begin, like everything else, before the event.
God is often a generalization of our ignorance and unfulfilment,
as "God knows" and "In God's good time"—we forget that we
are the Knowledge of God and his good time.
Anything is justified if superbly simulated; it becomes
believable.
The body is so pregnant with beauty that we should be careful of
our embellishments.
One thought fills vacuity, two would become actuality and
infinite complexity.
Passion has no longevity whatever its object, and has direful
awakening.
The threshold of the 'psychic' is the playground of the
charlatan.
Only the inspired mind is licensed to symbolize and so co-relate
the abstract to the particular or general.
Again and again this "I am God" doctrine has never provided much
evidence, except of power lent for purposes other than
our own. It soon stinks, translating into its reverse form; our
exteriorizations and extroversions are un-godly, and to become
'ourselves' we must become unlike them. Gods 'realize' not by
negation of others nor by seeing others as inferior, they
always see themselves as immense.
Man cannot be surpassed until he manifests all his suppressions.
Having fulfilled all evil he still possesses great
potentialities.
Any 'thing' is a quantum of everything.
A fact is a figment of a truism, therefore all facts are
inconclusive. Fictions are devices to explain the indefinables;
our whole systematic coherence is so forged.
I am incessantly active on a wonderful job—of finding out what I
am doing, and what it means. I can always read into it something
other than I did mean; never the meaning of my meaning, or the
whole meaning. Then we wonder whether anything has any more
meaning than anything else!
How do we know any damned thing? Chaos is our language; our own
eccentric rhythms are unsynchronized to Cosmos—with a mildewed
ear for the brassy cacophony of imaginary menageries dissonant
to each other; and it all ends drooling over minutiae to
discover oneself.
Our acceptances are our conclusions.
Existence is alogical to any 'logic' we know, so it is
irrational to attempt to rationalize, except in cases of our own
prejudices which inform our mentation.
If all phenomena are a fluxing unabsoluteness and are
Absoluteness manifest, then is it surprising that we manufacture
our ego that is neither-either but a weirder autism? Yet none
remember having desired existence… but indisputably we have Ego,
the only certainty we know. I mean by 'Ego', our individuality
as distinct and separate from all else.
Within the sensorium is a transcriber, or a synthesizing
faculty, using synonymous intangibles where association and
experience fail: as the capacity of certain sounds to induce
colour images, certain arabesque forms may find aesthetic truth.
All psychoses etc., have their origin in normality, they are not
inherent but acquired; indeed at one stage, madness itself is a
resolute choice—preferred. When we turn over the obverse of
reality we must accept the reverse: autism may be just as
satisfying as reality, because it has greater psycho-somatic
parallelism. It becomes a faculty—a circularity: 'wish,
suppositious deed'; a work of artistry, not of nature.
To reach out, clutch the transient 'thought' and remake it as
our own is one form of genius.
Life loveth life as adventitious.
There is more truth in our erotic zones, than in the whole of
religions and mathematics.
Truth is emergent and levels our necessities of direction
(general or specialized). The function of truth is coherence, it
indirectly forms our beliefs and values. We are all specimens of
self-evident truth, i.e. audient and endemic as the intermediacy
of pure Ego (informing agent) and empirical Ego (conative),
conscience being the nexus (emotional value): all Knowledge is
of one thing through another.
Within us all, and ever co-essential, is a prescient unknown
informer who tones all experience as good and evil: therefore,
whatever values or beliefs we hold, to transgress them is fatal.
Any fact or fiction has no difficulty in finding relatables as
supporting evidence because everything has a 'point of
connection' and a period of reality when instantly and
simultaneous to time and place. Our difficulty is to re-evoke
'as now': so we accept semblance of (i.e. make-belief, religion
or faith) as substitute of real belief (which needs no other
reality than its own: what you cannot conceive as yourself is
yourself (as another reality).
Abstract or concrete: if you suggest a wish to the thing you
desire of, in their own manner, there will be a response: So, if
I ask my mind in an appropriate manner for a definition of
'consciousness' I shall receive a true answer, although I may
not be able to translate it: semantics are either remiss or
insufficient to render the sequence of phonographs, but (without
understanding) I would receive an emotional impact, like from a
significant passage of music (of Bach or Mozart) thus inspire a
kind of semantic rendering. (as true as possible)
If we seek escape from reality, then everything we do, will be
as by proxy: There are more bogey men than real men.
Everything 'abstract' is unexclusively including, hence we know
little of our latencies.
To realize of belief is from 'Thatness', to assert ourselves
wholly 'as if That' within, we can only know ourselves by
conceiving ourselves as outside ourselves: For nothing you can
conceive will be beyond self: To see nullity—look within. We
imagine our thinking & reasoning is within, whereas it only
manifests through the body (the expressional means).
Hate in its various forms is the strongest emotion, far more
potent and far easier to evoke than any other. Hence there are
more people labouring to make the world worse than better. Until
man re-assesses this 'value' not only as 'dominant inferiority',
the repercussions of which are 'self'-defeating and
pre-determined, his future will be a baleful aftermath.
We are not individuated so much by our material composition as
by our purposeful functioning to redirect the Ids, to channel
them by arbitrary means, as though self-willed.
We are all self-constructed Egos and necessarily concentric;
whether altruistic or not is as may be.
O, Death, thou wouldst be the bringer of great gifts wert thou
not a misnomer—'the end'. In some manner do all the weary speak.
If the Absolute relates to non-absolutes and all antitheses,
then we lack only the 'conjunctionalism' for infinite
inter-relatability and self-identity.
Being unnecessary to ourselves (as others), entails everyone
becoming necessary for our survival.
When the denial of a proposition is incapable of being
conceived, then the proposition is to be accepted as necessary
or true: when you find such a proposition, there will be no
necessity for it.
God is absolutely my own Idea: otherwise God cannot exist.
The greater the contrasts we encounter the greater our reality:
Truth is all contrasting.
(Our) fictions constantly interacting create a co-essential
supposition, seek blood, join memory's causatory chain,
become as real as, or equal to, or better than, a stale reality.
Our imaginary excesses are the hylic of possibility.
If you act with ulterior motive or for evil, a thousand unseen
hands will assist you, indeed the devil himself will attend if
guised as altruistic. But if you act anonymously and virtuously,
only God will help you (which is doubtful).
When we say 'I Believe', it is usually a lip avowal from an
infected mouth of borrowed precepts or simulations, as living an
inexperience. Belief must be vital, livable, and as unquestioned
as our blood-circulation or heart-throb.
Some things are far distant in time and space; we journey by
relatability (whether fictional or non-fictional, either will
serve).
Man's love of fancy dress, of masquerading, is true translatable
symbolism: one fiction guising another.
There are conventions of asking, giving, receiving and taking.
How remiss we are—we often ask, give to, receive or take from
the wrong people.
We are dimensionally caged but nothing prevents our looking
through the bars—imagination has fewer bars than reasoning.
Thought is like the Ether, it conveys and permeates all things,
giving all we initially know. And what do we give in return?
Morality is a reciprocal discipline necessary to survival, and
to protect the inexperienced from consequences unnecessary or
unequal to development.
The jungle law is superior to ours, but then man makes his laws.
All pleasures eventually equalize; their difference is of
duration and degree. When certain pleasures are constant we
naturally strive for their preservation. Hence to me a 'large
fat woman's bottom' is spacious and spatial—I know nothing
better—so why should I disavow or transfer to 'Love of God', or
anything else? I am loving God via a fat arse. All true
appreciation of the abstract is through other things. Better
this, than acquiesce by faith in non-inferentials. Actuality,
like belief, is asserted by feeling. So the Soul loveth all who
loveth him through those things he maketh: he who appreciates my
work…
When you laugh at others you are 'seeing yourself as others see
us', but there is this qualification—there is very little good
portraiture, there is no quaquaversum of truth, only
quasiness.
Poetry is accomplished hyperbole.
Anomalies of language are numerous but some used here to further
a more logical form and show the purpose of my own system: a
personal form of articulating abstracts for psycho-somatic
changes and communication of Mind and Ego. The ethos of language
should be unequivocal 'meanings' (in any rational semantical
system) with the least ambiguous syntax possible.
All symbols, as words, are configurated meanings. Any series of
such meanings as a sentence should be short, a natural
apophthegm. Simplicity is the diction of clarity. Therefore, as
a phrase: 'I prefer fat women', as an opinion, is passable, and
the least erudite would understand. Being partitive, gives the
implication of 'why' to the receiver, who, if knowing me would
add: sensual, amiable, beautiful, cultured; others, without
knowing me, might mentally add some such as a generality
applicable to most. Nothing of which is in the sentence. So,
however simple a statement (apart from the stupid) more will be
read into it than is expressed, the by-product being—as
writing—the possible assumptions of others as though implicit,
when not so, and our assumption that they will understand our
meaning however clumsy or inexplicably stated. All of which is
useless for response from our own mind: Any partitive statement
will formulate itself (as complete) from others assertions as
conviction. Only our convictions as self-truths are responsive
from Ego to mind. Therefore the assertion 'God is love', 'God is
hate', 'God is indifferent', are not my self-truths, but if I
believe as substractive then intercommunion is possible, for
instance as self-truth: (inasmuch as) 'I believe in myself, all
things believe in me.' For if I believe in myself
unquestionably, therefore I believe all things. Therefore if I
transcribe 'I prefer fat women' by my own symbols, becomes a
request with all essential qualifications, thus: and
answered by the mind, whereas the verbal rendering would be
futile. Another predicament of verbal forms, e.g., if I state:
'He is a splendid man' (of a person known to us both) it would
be understood that I implied only physically (as their moral,
social and mental value was remiss). Here the designated subject
speaks more than the words used. Hence the same sentence to
another (not knowing the person) leaves them guessing as to true
reference: They would have to apply, as meaning as of general
worth (or Ideal). Therefore, interpretation of words depends
mainly on equal knowledge of subject and some values of
meanings.
Every foetus has (an exterior) prescience as to destination from
which, concurrently, is developed its own perception by
experience: personal ego ex universal Ego. Hence our
fore-knowledge is an abstract ominous conscience.
How Fate steals the things we love best! Hymen is poxed, the
odalisques survive in pathetic stews, man stinks: how did it
occur? Greed is the infectious disease.
The only attribute of God is Man (or vice versa).
Some phantasms are a species of object impressionistically
perceived and amalgamated with another, more rational,
impression.
Man believes by hetero-suggestion far more than he experiences
'now', though what he mainly believes are similitudes of past
experience.
A fictions is unattributable to anything known and nothing is
known for certain.
All conation is synthetic derivation, our best—that little
difference.
When enthusiasm and effort are co-equal and joined in
purpose—realization is near, whatever its merit.
Life does not decrease but increases by fulfilment. We were
generated and do ourselves generate. Whether we shall ever
originate is locked up in our unknown future potentialities and
not in our nominalism and knowledge.
'To know ourselves', 'to renounce ourselves', etc., are
postulates of hyperbole; we but change our mental clothes by new
figures of speech. The mind is our index of the infinite
exhibiting a universe of which we know little; yet the
unknowable within us is vaster and hence more potent of
possibility.
We have erected the negation of equity into a form of existence
by systems of government: our birthrights are stolen at birth
and to keep us empty-handed we are taught—'Thou shalt not
steal'.
Look into your past to forecast your future.
Is it short-sighted to limit our beliefs when we do not know our
ultimate possibilities? Yet all expression is within the limits
of definite technique and formalism—whatever our attempts at
diversity.
What do we know for certain? In the complexity of differences we
become endowed with pretence and dogmatize our lies.
The mystery of beauty, the undivulged of things, gives them
their enchantment not their known meanings.
There is a Third Eye! To paraphrase "let not thy right eye see
what they left eye seeth" would be a 'distinction without much
difference', except for our willful blindness to all permitted
self-deceptions which are seen and recorded by the inner eye.
You may delude your fore-consciousness, but not what is beneath.
…And of the noumenal, our eternity, we hope that all our efforts
in life are ultimately for a permanent perfection, with change
an additional pleasure. Everything, knowledge and experience of
life contradicts such a possibility.
Is the Truth necessary? The need is for our own Truth:
lack of integrity makes for sterility and is meaningless. Things
more necessary than Truth are expressed through our efforts to
render such.
An infliction of old age is the indictment of all ages; be
certain that your non-successes, accidents, and all illnesses
however slight, will be the result of your agedness.
There are no conclusive conclusions, yet nothing germinates
unless we have, or make, the necessity of arbitrary
'will-desire-belief' for a possible image of our ambition.
The eclectic path is not an avoidance of obstacles, but an
alignment (often oblique) that cuts through from one
predetermined place to another.
God is within us?—not yet seen, but as a mirror's reflection: an
inexistent reality of presence without residence.
Ideas you conceive are their own possibility.
The great sterilities: the numen and the human—ever present—are
stercoraceous images of greed under other names.
When one sees one's reflection everywhere and sees everything in
oneself one becomes as the Stoic. One is never lost to 'Ego' or
one's ego to eternity: the outwardness of ego is the recessive
and remaining part of ourselves.
Through mind is our all-reachingness, and through the copula;
our technique of articulating desire is limited, bad or mad.
Soul and mind are indifferent to our language but respond to
affectiveness when conveying pure sentiment.
Where Ego goeth, there only is the sensation and perception of
reality.
We call certain events 'Acts of God', or 'Fate', whereas they
are the workings of equity from our own past Karma.
We make words ambiguous by adding our meaning;
qualifications become endless and few understand themselves or
each other.
Whatever you assert of the gods is more true of yourself.
All ways to Heaven lead to flesh. Our re-orientation and ascent
from Earth must start here: nothing is obtained except by desire
and our only medium is flesh—mouth and hand. In the midst of
reality we strive for unreality, hence I teach the equal reality
of all things, man and his illusions—flesh of dreams… There is a
lamentable display of the non-artists shadow-fighting their
fears; automata actuated by their own committed untruths seeking
their fulfilment.
Truth is everywhere, there is nothing untrue anywhere; it may
appear so, because we cannot accurately relate it.
I behold multiplicity in all things and myself as the
inter-relating oneness, for whatsoever else I conceive will lead
me astray or into 'as if'. The more I get into things the more I
am beyond them, so, the more within, the more without…
I am everywhere present, yet unknown to myself except in Ego. I
am a configuration of all the multitudinous compositions, and
knowing not myself fully how can I know much of other selves and
the gods? But the man we know is mainly made from the beliefs
that he enacts, for 'being' is a function of the all-remembering
Soul: so believe from your necessities, which alone
obtain response and recompense—whether of good or evil.
Nightmare: how dreadful is this place; is it some religious
hereafter?
'One in All', etc., and thousands of other generalizations, are
language faecia, meaningless concretions, the 'stinking
lump' spelling chaos out of which sprang order by separateness
and every inequality, with the supreme attainment of
individuality and ego.
Wisdom is the realisation of the mysterious incomprehensibility
of all things, whoever the designer; and all the partial
disclosures of knowledge prove this.
If I was begotten of all yesterdays then Ego (made of my
memories become flesh) is my only lamp for the tomorrows.
My gods have grown with me.
The secret of happiness is to be in harmony with yourself;
little more is permitted or desirable. Seek your environment and
adapt it: do not ask me what is 'yourself'—I know only vaguely
what I have made from Self into myself.
If others loved themselves half as much as I do, there would be
no wars. Everything would seem less dangerous than Reality, for
everyone would escape or unrender it.
Vitality of idea, vitality of form and balance of
composition—these are the essentials of the masters who make
their truths live.
When you are bored it is evidence of disease—you are going
blind, deaf, or are paralyzed, etc.
Friendship is only the refraction of a desire for a fuller self.
Until I am God in myself, I am nothing to God.
We are much worse in prospect than in retrospect.
Passion is purchased by passion. Those of small desires will
only bleed you and make you as necessitous as themselves.
When we exploit the extent of solitude we find it more crowded
than a great company and the abode of our own realities. There
is no retirement from solitude, and, when we fear it, conscience
is actively malignant.
Only dominant desire shall compel us to do what we want to do
successfully.
Nature is an integrating principle, never compelling uniformity.
I do know, not only that I know but also what little I know of
my own omniscience.
I dreamed the psychic world was a concurrent inverse devolution;
man, failing as human, reincarnates as a caricature of the
beast.
The price of Identity is suffering.
I believe in 'strangerhood': the trouble with 'brotherhood' as
an ideal is that man's present behaviour is too bloody for
words.
Space is the limit of probabilities; Time, of the immediately
possible. Lies are the reflective exhibitionism of some
'forgotten' event we wish to re-live. Whatever lie you state
could be true—at one time, at another time, but not at this time
and place. We must first create a suitable environment.
Our 'personal religion' is often a suppressed sentimentality to
benefit others; when so, we are at our best.
Words, words, words, however used, whatever they symbolize,
request, or tell, say more, showing in between the antics
of all motives. Yes, word-rendering deals the quickest of deaths
to flabby ideas; and also words are the most poignant,
suggestive, contagious, substitutive and lasting means to convey
anything. Most deadly virus, most potent abreaction of magic
subtlety even your erasures reveal your believing by their
persuasive influence and their magic.
If a wish formulates its meaning from a parallel likeness, it
will have a substantive exegesis.
The giver who gives desiring no requital is without fault: the
receiver has a moral onus as the contra-givee; there is ultimate
equitable recompense in all things.
The 'Summum bonum' of evaluation is equitable
compensation or compromise between differentiations; our
'thisness' in relation to 'thatness'. Ours the intensive,
otherness the extensive.
All psycho-traumas relate to the subconscious and change us from
the instinctive to the deliberate.
If we see a thing and feel nothing the result is almost nullity,
just as if we touch something and visualize nothing. Emotive
sensation is our highest process and function.
Sincerity is difficult except through lasting affections, being
unstable in adaptation and tending to dysteleology. Sincerity is
the quintessence of sentiment, our deep feeling (or
'aesthesis'); it creates our ability and formulates our
temperament, individuality, and character.
No man is an independent individual. We are unaware that 'being'
is infinitely interrelated and our re-relatability is our only
form of reality, though it is always a temporary union.
Longevity and youthful appearance are bound up with
infantilisms, with its own group of habitualized fixations,
phobias and inhibitions.
The common stench—self-righteousness.
Mathematical alignments 'prove' the pragmatism of 'as if': a
straight line being a segment of an undetermined and extensive
arch.
Forms obtain additives by dimensional differentia and
orientations of objects perceived.
The quintessence of monotony: all things alike and equal.
Panacea: not presence, impulse, conceit, but the audacity of
'instant mind-courage' in action, is the answer that fulfils.
Nature teaches equal significance of all things: the blade of
grass, the dead God or a live sow, all are of the same earthly
worth. Of supernal value is your service of remaking self in
unlikenesses of yourself.
The unjustly injured are not benefited if the same injury is
inflicted on the aggressor: punishment should not only be
corrective but compensatory to the victim. This does not
preclude other kinds of deterrents if necessary.
If you must murder, seek the murderers; meet evil with evil,
even unto yourself.
Ego: a contra-reflective symbol of the noumenal becoming fertile
from our own inexhaustible refractibility. Ego is a power of
conjunctivity, a second-hand reality of the noumenal,
functionally divergent from the original: a fluxing
all-directional appetence, connective by all 'as if';
equivalents becoming directive by disparities.
Autists as artists validate their wishes by conative effort,
proving their concepts as the pre-determining force of
possibility and metamorphosis.
Life is an endless re-creation. Whatever we are, our value is in
the next existential: always a composite of some yesterday's
potentialities.
Whether we are inspired by the Gods or by any other means, it is
all the same: we are as They, and much as they are to us.
"No law but mine", no fool has ever succeeded in maintaining.
Thought is an impression subsequent to feeling, prior to which
it has no signature.
All equations are an assumption: an averaging of variant
inequalities from inexactitudes as an approximate—remiss always.
Time-space is an empirical relativism deriving from our manifold
of incomplete and unsynthesized representations seeking nexity.
The unrelated has neither time, space, nor ego.
We cannot guess our purpose, and never surpass it, but it is
imperative that we believe in one for it confers ability.
There is no balance without equal tension or reciprocal
compensation.
We are as shadows of our doubts, delusion-reared, haunted by
hopes and fears, cramped in some corner we imagine real and
secure… And pray to God, intent to prey.
The incredible may follow the possible, because none can assess
what may become true or what is impossible. When we speak of the
impossible or the inconceivable we really mean something that is
impossible immediately, that that moment of time cannot find
relationship with the past.
We best serve ourselves by serving others the necessity of
themselves; our defaulting is bathos and bloody.
Everything is manifest, the fault is our inability to apprehend
from our level. Knowledge is slowly gained from experience and
appearances, explaining the less known by the known by the
faculty of reasoning.
Whoever exploits the less probable as possible is a fine artist.
How can you be dynamic with small beliefs and small desires?
Whoever we are, the borrowed pretensions are our defect—always
less worthy than our own Truth, unnecessary and futile. By them
we are unfitted to be sincere; it endangers what good we have:
this mediocracy lives only its inferiorities.
Chastity may be a safeguard, never an excitement or adventure.
But do not pride yourself, for fall you must.
Death is necessary for forgiveness…
Rightly man is screened from much of himself—he already hates
too much.
The wrong motive underlies our righteousness and faulting others
becomes our meat.
Old age is our best advertisement, for it has sucked the poison
of most things and survived.
The beliefs we make are the best for us, whatever their truth.
Any belief is sanctified by the believing, and justified by
results.
The best in me may be the worst in you, or vice versa.
If death is our reformation it is also a long term of
forgetfulness; when reborn we seldom know who we were before.
Inspiration is our only fortuitous gift from the Soul.
The sexually devitalized have necessity only with death.
When I feel nature, I feel that truth is immanent—in the
vastnesses, the vistas, where my Soul dwells. There is nothing
ashamed, meretricious or facetious. Facing this majesty I feel
ashamed of my false shame and pretences, for here 'I am', with
my significance.
Go wherever you have seminal affinities: so sayeth Satyros.
The Soul has no language, level and values, except its own, but
it answers to all true affectiveness.
To become oblique is one answer: but our minds have heaped up
clichés, coined, borrowed or inherited, mostly spurious. So
stultified—not by limits of language, or by dumbness—we fail
through falsities and half-believing, by fears bred of cramped
growth, obedience to uninspired patterning, and we lose our
impassioned creativeness by accepting easy conventions, idioms,
and shoddy imitations.
We hate and love ourselves only through others. Heaven save us
from looking only for our own likenesses.
Life is a potency, becoming a selection of indulgences; a path
through the chaos we make—how soon fearing. Shocked, we cry out
for salvation, and backslide to some old mothering or
protectiveness. No escape but to breathe the human smell, touch
the hirsute flesh: shall again adventure… must transgress.
Compensating mechanisms often demand an antithesis to balance or
fulfil them, as with character and temperament: an ideal
union—the masculine woman and the effeminate man.
Equity is the stabilizer of eternity.
Man's environmental ills are his making; the irresponsible
delegating of authority to shelve his own responsibility.
Unappreciated ability becomes devitalized, breeds a
self-indulgent sickness—a self pity that suffers alone.
Importance lies in things 'as now'. Flesh exists to be
exploited. It is in all things and all things will be through
it. All emanations are through the flesh and nothing has reality
for us without it. The Soul is ever unknowable because we can
only realize by finite form in Time-Space. So, whatever you
attribute to the inconceivable is your Ego, as conceived.
The mind and its great thought-stream determines everything and
permits all things conceivable as possible. This thought-stream
refracts illations both from the Soul and from ourselves into
our time-sense—images and symbols which inspire us from the
inter-relatabilities, and our reactions form our future destiny
of good and evil with thought the nexus to all things past and
becoming. Whether the gods created us or we created them is of
no import except as an expedient.
If I were merely the delegated automaton of the great 'Id'
(desire) with pre-ordained channels, amoral, endowed with
phallic grandiosity and let loose among excitements, I would end
in hysteria unto paralysis: there is a law of reversal.
Giving our so-called services to others is the genuine 'as if'.
It isn't essential to know the reason or purpose of things, or
the 'why', 'whither', 'whence'; they were begotten of Eternity
and our comprehension is begotten of Time. Your virtue is to
believe in yourself as your self, i.e., as an individual making
your individuality: Cogito, ergo sum.
Vital belief overcomes all things, in that it will endow us with
the means to do so.
Time is not a separate dimension but a purely human and
arbitrary contrivance of measurement by comparison; yet time is
integrated in us and all things as our spaciousness and our
essential way of realizing and knowing our 'narrow corner'.
When all permutations and combinations of Form have obtained,
will dimension cease? Will the last imminence become, and Time
enter Eternity?
Sacrifice is the first duty of self-love.
Our purpose and completeness fully to realize Self is in our
existence for others, but the hand of weakness leads us to evil.
The disaster of love is that it gives us occasion to love in one
person what we should love in all.
The discarding of inhibiting beliefs by reorientation and
substitution gives a selected level adjustable to the new Idea,
and becomes the matrix for obsession. The tight packing of space
and the involuntary enforced silence are premonitions of
pregnancy from this act.
The deliberate delayed satisfaction of an urge, when serving
another intent, is of greater benefit to the person concerned
than its immediate satisfaction. Urges serving their immediacy
are often a failure, a disservice resulting in degenerate
offspring.
…And remember, you shall suffer all things and again suffer:
until you have sufficient sufferance to accept all things.
A thing only has reality and meaning when it has affinities and
associations, however implicit.
I believe in the power of belief.
Nothing is more costly than principles: because their
maintenance depends on ourselves.
Day-dreams are our cheapest luxuries.
Whatever our avowal we never worship the same god for
long—desires change.
With little evidence we form meanings and judgments and
dogmatize that our propositions are considered opinion against
all immediate experience. Thoughtless assertions or anxious
expressionism are too frequent and none perceives the full
meaning or implication of partitive statements or
generalizations. Most conclusions are mere sentences that need
endless qualification.
Arrestment sets limits that are more prolific of exploration
than unstable wandering; there is need of a period of
unlearning, of de-indoctrination, of de-mathematicalization, of
transvaluating, of fresh levels and directions, a new category
of definitions and meanings for possible and probable Ideals.
Ideas issue from the impact of strong contrasts and urge our
search for new sensations. Without negations reality would
become anemic and linear.
I know too many gods… yet the greatest stranger to me is myself.
And those who speak so glibly and knowingly of God (alleged
Absolute), who know his ways, wills, desires, etc., are
committed to their inferiority. The word 'God' once uttered
seemingly proliferates into all ungodliness. Why they imagine
that God needs the endowment of human attributes is a mystery as
profound as their ignorance—unless this 'half-idiot God' desires
to impersonate us and thereby, quid pro quo, permit us to
impersonate him? And so we make an adaptable God, one to barter
with… defraud. This stuff, this moon-wrack, well suits the human
equation. If we are in God's image, we know the maker's hand—the
old looking-glass self-nomination: so we ever create. Still, we
must become designers and cast this strange coinage; whether
spurious or of merit it has a value for sure. Whatever our
designs, they are derivative and unbeknowningly follow some
dicta of the gods: exchangeable by artistic merit?
This is a world of re-living, re-believing, re-valuing,
surviving all infirmities to remake and reform. And this furor
about reality, whether it exists in us or elsewhere—we have
become so confused and confounded by deceptions of logic and
nonsense that we do not know even which reality we mean.
But, whatever we may mean or imply we cannot misrepresent
anything of which we know nothing.
How do we know anything? Who told us and where does it come
from? Is it a recollection, a re-appearance from latent memory?
Our mind inter-relates us as it so wills, from any instant to
some early becoming or yet further back, so that we may re-join,
relate and re-experience, add to our experience.
Wisdom works from the subconsciousness; we have all experienced
'inspiration' in some form; that strange feeling that climaxes
to flash a new conception from our own orientation.
The Absolute is unbecoming and sterile if unbelieved. What is
Truth? This question implies colour-blindness; it is asked
rather as if Truth were an unrelated fact, thing, or abstract,
the reason being that we do not conceive of it as multiple,
varied, universal, or complex, but always as abstract. For there
are many kinds of truth and all our truths are arrived at
through negatives—what has no beginning has no becoming; what is
without form has no meaning. Truth is of all things past, actual
and potential in the conceptive—therefore Truth is relative.
What is true for me may not be so for you, and what is true now
may not be so later, or at other times and places, hence truth
has a chronology in space and 'time-space truth'. There are the
truths we create from our 'as if' realities—environment,
character, temperament, learning, etc. Truth is also born of our
known and latent beliefs so that to the insincere truth is
baffling. Truth may be induced by the obsessive, by faith, or by
something committed: these are the 'personal truths', the 'as if
truths'. I assert that all lies are true when accurately
reorientated to time and place, and may be called 'sidereal
truths'. 'Absolute truth', if any, is the immediate truth, the
instant, already in yesterday, so never is. All reality, all
life, all truths are of yesterday, and tomorrow is the beginning
of another yesterday and gives 'commutative truth'… but I am
sick of all categories, nominalism and all bloody science—so
enough of Truth, and, like Pontius Pilate I wash my hands of it.
Too much truth in me already…
For I am I: ergo, the truth of myself; my own sphinx,
conflict, chaos, vortex—asymmetric to all rhythms,
oblique to all paths. I am the prism between black and
white: mine own unison in duality.
Look into your past to forecast your future. It is short-sighted
to limit our beliefs when we do not know our ultimate
possibilities. Yet all expression is within the limits of
definite techniques, media, and formalism, whatever our attempts
at diversity.
Our greatest thoughts and conations are automatic in origin: the
deep pervading significance would appear to be a dissolving
omniscience—increative by excreation—as the sun ever
unsolicitous, ever giving, ever living: for whatever it taketh
it giveth back manifold.
Ego is the reflector of the mind and through us Nature weaves
diversity of herself. Her limitless knowledge is at the command
of all our Ideas, whether ideal or decadent.
The inexplicable of beauty, the undivulged of things—not their
known meanings—gives them their enchantment.
Insight expresses things by symbols and is a pure manner of
relating—seeing: the way of some things can be known only by
silent graphs—interlocking forms pregnant with meaning.
Existence is fated: the expiation of our past; good and evil
rewarded by their aftermath. Avowal of faith has no worth except
by the voluntary sacrifice through service to others' needs by
which we fulfil our own, and reshape our future: Fate.
Whether within or without, nothing is explicit. Nature
reveals slowly her techniques and media: her meanings and
motives we know nothing of, and guess only from our own desires.
The value of the Artist lies in his awareness that anything
has its beauty and significance; and in giving 'visual' reality
to his conceptions, however fantastic; transforming all
falsehood into a truth.
To see ourselves with our eyes open, that is the problem, and to
explore our ultimate participations now embedded deeply in layer
upon layer of extraneousness: nothing is beyond recall.
Inevitably, Life and Death nourish each other—a constant
renovation—so why should we fear our again becoming the worth
we did strive after?
Words and their meanings cannot change much; their sounds are
constant of a hidden content not related to our meanings.
The spurious, embellished by cheap finery is the furniture of
the pedant mind and, Imitators Beware: you still have the dog's
attitude to its master.
You would save yourselves? My advice is—Keep away from each
other, and so keep away from your worst self: our attributes are
always bad.
An accomplishment is affectionate longevity: great Art gives…
and the finest minds untiringly respond.
Nature is the one tradition that precludes criticism.
Destiny uses strange disguises: the causes of great change
appear always superficial or promiscuous.
If we appreciated only what we know as true, there would be
nothing to enjoy.
Our deepest feelings are oft enwrapped in the worst sentiment or
taste.
Be careful what you cast out—the vacancy is quickly filled.
Do I believe in myself? Look around! Could I be so inconceivably
credulous?
Memories resurrected from our sublated selves filled with their
experiences are never-ending: Knowledge has a time-lag.
By our spunklessness we suffer, and half-feature and half-form
our desires into abortiveness.
The road, for you, is always devious and dangerous.
We often kill ourselves by self-poisoning: Fate follows swiftly
our adopting things foreign to our inherent aesthetic values.
The dilemma facing those who search for the Unknown (Self and
Truth) is that they will never know when they have found it.
Having succeeded to life awhile—something we apparently
never desired—must we have the added obligation of thanksgiving?
You cannot obtain anything from yourself, only through
yourself.
'Self-truth' results from the unification of Will, Desire and
Belief forced into one thing. By this affectiveness the
Soul draws near and casts its omniscience over us by
inspiration. None knoweth the purpose of life outside Ego… I am
content with an effort to be human, with firm belief in the
gods' permitting my urge to greater independence.
Superman has passed; the unquiet catafalques are ruins of the
classic splendour which no human vandalism could quite destroy.
Their tradition survives. They too resurrect—their deputies step
forth as giantesque ghosts and re-live in great artists with the
Promethean fire to regerminate afresh. As representative:
Michaelangelo, Rabelais, Voltaire, Balzac, Cervantes,
Shakespeare, Swift, Darwin etc.
We who seek—whether we know or not what we seek or find,
seem forced to face divergent paths; and ever inviting is the
non-resistant blind alley to all sameness, to sick and weary
life. Other paths, rougher, lead who so willeth to new
pleasures: verily they lead the life-force with ever-open eye to
the awaiting disaster or to chaos—never bathos, self-pity. The
brave care nothing.
O ye Gods, say ye nothing? My nightmare told me ye say all
things—or my translation is faulty?
Efforts to surpass realism: this poor energy runs weed-like to
absurdities, and plethoric unrealism shoves out the vital, the
simple. Here, self-arrestment saves: 'as if' reverting to our
archaic virginity to effloresce a new surrealism.
Could we but smell! A finger beckons—the ruttish side-glance; we
lurchingly detour to grasp the painted hussy. All fishy
suspicions fade: then we awaken—wedlocked to sickly evil…
Give up, give up, stuttereth cowardice: crawl another ceiling?
Ride another ass? So mocks my own tiredness. Awake, break the
neck of your bloody Id or ride him till he drops.
I am never less than I am, but through wrong susception.
All will be thine, sayeth the mind, i.e., all who 'will
rightly'. Those who sacrifice everything to one purpose—whether
for good or evil—are granted power and the formidable weapon of
words.
The wise man often exuviates his knowledge, rectifies his
pastiche of acceptances and reverts to simple fundaments. By
courage his eye is never stale and his levels become as steps.
He again reorientates by oblique divagation, new asymmetries,
dynamics, complexities and funambulatory compositions; never
destroying his essential dis-symmetry.
There are egotists who—merely touched by a 'home truth'—become
ruthlessly callous and vengeful or hysterically accuse you
of their failings: always upstarts to their failings.
Love for all things is integral beauty; it has no hate or
possessiveness; its law is its own causality. Passions may be
controlled but we best love by non-will as inclination dictates:
so accept love wherever you may find it. It is difficult to
recognize because it never asks.
All our denials, even of ourselves, come from non-acceptance:
the unrealisation of otherness in self; of the Absolute in the
non-absolute.
Contact with reality: the impact of flesh on flesh by every
illogical means is the only logical thing.
Our unsocial acts are paid for by our future deformities:
redemption is by our own blood.
Sex abreacted between two becomes seductive and consummation
should naturally follow.
Is it our misconception of Self which determines the evil will
of man, formulating a disastrous law to which he is ever
subject?
"I desire" is all of life. Desires are born of necessity, by
sincerity of belief and striving for realization, yet always
originating through the fictional supposition from reality. Thus
Man creates his conceptions from his conception of a soul—from
his wish for one, and he becomes his mental flesh. 'As if'
ultimately becomes its own reality, but you will never know it
as your creation, for Man already possessed a Soul and formed
this other from his suppositions, never disentangling the two.
Thus Ego is twice-born—hence our duality.
The Absolute appears to become other than itself, for it is
sufficient; it is and is not, nor is it beyond, nor in, nor of,
me, or anything else: it is 'Neither-Neither'. If I say, "it
alone is arbitrary", that would also be eristic, and everything
we may state mere supposition—for it "need not be". I call it
'all the abilities of impossibles' (of conception).
To face armies—yea, even death: to enjoy the set place: to
enkindle our acquaintance as on a festive occasion: to welcome
the other selves as oneself—that my love should be. For when I
face my soul I am as naked as in death. Therefore, rejoice now
in all thy coverage.
The 'Ids' have created a new Grand Style which fulfils itself by
attaining a non-ethical Ideal with the idealized Ugly as an
aesthetic that has become more creative than the gods.
Soul permitted Mind—the first form, and spatial. Imagination and
rhythm, the machinery of this higher basic harmony is—by our
ecstasy—contiguous because it is a flash of reality. All our
transference is by the harmony and imagination granted us.
The figures and forms of our less deliberate expressions become
the personifications of our abstract emotion—a sequence by the
intensities of our feeling.
Whatever we invite and accept of our thoughts must gather me
into metaphor by a known tautology revealing our lesser-known
attitudes to things.
Character is the measurable result of modified or controlled
desires. Ability exhibits our affective psychic unions.
The conjugation of a priori and a posteriori
crated the Anoëtic.
The way of Ego is by impact, then by recognition, action,
emotional relating, and ultimately the de-theosizing of our
self-conception.
Am I all things? Are all things in me? All things become
emanations of Ego, but first I must forsake my parents and walk
alone.
The Noumenal of things is unrelated truth, because when
related cognition becomes creaturely, un-universal, relative. An
empty vase holds space yet it is only a shape enveloping a
measurement of space in space. Truth manifests manifoldly and
our own Truth manifests by complex refraction, reverse-inverse
always diverse, not as it is. Thus, our conceptions are always
partitive and our deviations project the dimensions of our
cognition. The ground of abstract human sentiment and ability is
from inherent atavisms generating a potential and ultimating via
an ideal.
'Like' first recognized differences and then likenesses. The
emotional contact gave effusion which helped us to see
interrelationships everywhere and—the inducement to new
likenesses in what would have been unlikely.
The magical act is a fulgurant of one's whole affectiveness by
wish-education.
Who may know his complete likeness, so much being hidden? The
Astrals, Elementals, Mind, Soul? We realize something of the
body's mechanism and of the affectiveness of the whole; at its
interrelations we may only guess. Every fact gleaned shows us
merely greater ignorance of ourselves. Therefore, speak not of
God, speak for yourself alone, for when you know yourself you
will know your gods.
The yeasty conceits of adolescence that flourish unchecked,
unrealized by merely wishing, linger on and become dramatically
traumatic as substitutions for reality—always a change
transference of absurdities.
The uncommitted life becomes deeply committed to an ultimate
aftermath that will be compensatory (good or bad); all are
caught in this ironic paradox.
Nothing exists that is unnecessary; ergo, only those things
shall and may exist that we make necessary to ourselves—not in
conformity to our logical/moral standards but to our own
value-urges by 'as if'.
A dissipating passion never leads to a worthwhile reality in
consummation.
The only certainties are the great uncertainties of unremembered
commitments to
myself.
The real, or 'as if', with unsuitable substitution leads only to
instability through dissatisfaction.
Speak not of the inconceivableness of God for I am this but am
not a god.
Sensations are impacts from phases of outer energy, relevant or
not but mostly hurtful.
Communion with your Noumen is 'as if' through Ego by an
apocryphal symbology. Even with great virtue of belief none can
attain union with Soul or Noumen for they are ever interlocked.
Why begin with false beliefs? Your unions are with your own
ideas of them.
The first law was duality, determining by differentiated
duplication; for whatever is begotten is from a similarity. The
chain of causation is a sequence of entities becoming less and
less similar and, eventually, a unique diversion to the
prototype and to each other.
The immemorial universal (refracted through mind and senses)
becomes personified as Ego which manifests more and more through
the ever increasing complexity of matter, as body-entity. The
'dualities' of Soul, Mind, Ego and Body, with their inexact
duplications, baffle and bewilder us.
Ego is our soul becoming its own. Though now dependent, chained
to body, caged by dimensions, yet we are occasionally granted
visual telaesthesia which reveals that we 'need not be' as
minions, but are ultimately independent.
Ego while adolescent is unstable, wayward, contradictory,
appearing as psychomachy and without theo-anthropic
possibilities.
Mind gives function, determines, endows and benefits Ego via the
body, from which it must realize. Hence Ego's interactions with
body do not appear parallel with mind but with body.
Whether Ego will ultimately be free of, or create 'body' as so
needed are alternatives no more impossible than any other
unrealized possibilities. Forsooth, the impossible is
everywhere: our attitude alone makes things impossible.
The great reservoir from which life derived by processes of
evolution… so first pulsed our conscious entity as Ego. It does
not return to its source, whatever 'matter' may do in
dissolving. For Ego shall become independent, shall become its
own jussive. Soul, Mind, Body, and all that Ego shall rightly
conceive, shall be increative. How do I know? Power is sometimes
lent: my desire was for Knowledge, then by lightning coincidence
I beheld the amazing vision of ultimate Ego. I know—tongue
tied I cannot retell; perhaps the hinge of connection must be
your own self-congruence.
If events are foretellable from the subconscious (which I
maintain) how do I and others like me reconcile 'freedom of
will' and 'fatalism' or 'determinism'? To begin with, man is
predestined by his good, evil and past history, but within him
is the potential for effort towards free will and independence.
Illustration: I am predestined 'to journey to a certain place'.
I have this measure of freedom: I can choose the direction and
even delay the event—but go I must. It is obvious that those
living a virtuous life are rectifying their future and the
possibility of freer will.
There is a form of aesthesis that is only explainable by the
unison of all emotions, as when all opposites mesh and our
'whole being' effluently feels: such a state allows of
telaesthesia.
The coetaneous has a spatial spread, causing unknown concurrent
superfetations having their abstract after-births. So, man
becomes fatally committed not only to known but also to unknown
commitments.
Nothing complete or completing; all existence a mighty ocean,
ever resurging, reindulging, and divulging little—wherein we are
thrown to grasp the straw of Ego as our raft to Eternity.
All thoughts are presupposed from other suppositions that have
reality in a differential of Reality: otherwise there would be
an irreflexive unalterable zero plus zero.
Belief prefers singularity yet must work through complex desire.
'That is beautiful!' Is not this appreciation a loose
coital form?
We must compel possibility to accept us favourably if only in
imagination. Commit as many mental adulteries as you wish—it
denotes health.
The failures in life become the manure in death.
The substratum of human cognition is an unknown inherent
syllogism creating our formalisms. The field of sentiment goes
beyond, to the ideal ultimate. Beyond again is the
arbitrary-causal-archetypal, the abstract span of conceivability
with conation levelled to our ability.
The Mind divulges by the power of inexorable affections that
become a necessity.
Sex is the only way of procreation, and our hylotheism changes
the matrix of our desire.
…These poor likenesses are of slavering fears and poor beliefs.
Are they the differentiated correlatives we make of ourselves
for the great innovation? No, they must come from the
sweat of ecstasy.
This is your great moment of reality—the living flesh!
These self-frightened saints who bleat "all is illusion"—offer
fewer alternatives to reality than half a wet dream. They expect
too much without payment—to reap without sowing, and by luck to
forfeit debt, so they imagine, and hope that death will be the
end.
Know thyself: Such knowledge reveals little but the redundant.
The hidden and the unknown are affinities, ever ubiquitous and
much inhibited.
If mankind had mistrusted all teaching it would long ago have
embraced Equity.
Dreams are a patchwork of hopes and fears seeking realization in
imaginative reality—often now the best conative.
Man is a potentiality of anything becoming actuality—the
least and the greatest. Seek thy way through that which is, into
that which you desire or think it should be, for the day of
great mutation is always at hand—for the chosen.
There is a supernal prolepsis given to those who sublimate their
desire towards beauty as final pragmatism.
There are many ultimates but all sublimate into Auto-Ego.
If there was 'primacy of practical reason' then judging by
'results' it has become its own laughing poltergeist…
Wisdom is a stasis, knowledge is ever-reforming, changing, never
completing.
What am I?
I am all I have remembered summarized as form, for I was once
allness and absolute.
What is Ego?
That which I have united emotively of my past to things.
What is the world of environment?
My past and future selves, seen and unseen.
What does it all mean?
Whatever I desire it to mean when necessary to me.
What is it all for?
Self-pleasure by infinite unities and equal separations, to
retain separateness.
What is death?
A great mutation to my next self.
There is no Ultimate: everything becomes from what has gone
before, because of changing ultimates determined by our
valuation of things.
Be certain, you will not experience what you do not desire
unless it be forced on you by your past evil.
Creation is an ever-expanding energy rather than a work
completing; infinite contraction is less conceivable but is
co-relative. Space extends with thought, time with Ego.
Nothing is anything unless fixed in the substantial; thus dreams
and abstracts are as concrete as anything else.
The character of a Form is determined by its featural content
and function. Good and evil must be felt before they have
reality. There is no conceivable benefit in emotions, considered
abstractly, unless they communicate some good to our being, and
every being is in some way the better for the emotions of
others.
The likenesses and differences in things—their conjunctiveness
or otherwise—we strive to know, yet secretly the mind's
extra-sensory arguments convey their meaning by symbols and then
inspire us to interpret their greatness.
All Nature is a vast reflection of that which is within us,
otherwise we could not know it.
We are as we are until we extend to other needs. The mind drinks
a plethora of impressions, of vaguenesses, of things held in
awe. The incompatibilities, when forgotten and buried, shall
re-awaken as a great race to reach Unity in new-rhythmed
patterns which later develop into a cultivated process.
Instead of controlling us our inhibitions are often
self-destructive—they negate the creative act through fear to
perform.
Talk your psycho-physical troubles out into the open but do
nothing to remove their cause—that would be too easy and might
indict civilization. There is no escape by escapism—a labour of
forging more chains to prevent suicide.
If I cannot believe in the eternity of Ego, whatever its
fluctuations, in what shall I believe?
There is no whole without our particular parts and our efforts
to become essential and more extensive.
Our positiveness convinces others who have little of it;
suggestion being more powerful to convey it than formal
instructions.
None of us knows our limitations without full articulation;
wrong application, media, and idioms are more to blame than any
lack of ability.
We should solicit extensively to procreate our thought-forms:
the final phase—criticism, revision, rejection.
Mental activity is stimulated by sex-appeal, but passion is more
easily squandered than coagulated.
Many things grow revertive as they advance in time: we desire
longevity without its failings.
Know the spurious and ephemeral by these
characteristics—laziness and imitativeness. The failures will
proclaim and embrace them, the genuine—unheralded,
overlooked—are wrongly assessed from the start.
If we could give a true history of ourselves it would be of our
emotional changes and evaluations, shaped into character by the
conflict of temperament, experience and environment.
Often we desire a truth but to maintain our errors. Sincerity
lasts but simulation needs constant revision.
Thought is a reflection and all ideas in thought are possible
only from a prototype.
Constant self-reformation is essential for higher attitudes.
When we identify our desire with an object it is our nearest
conception of reality. Procreation is a more adequate
realization than other relationships, so reality is suffered
only as fleeting and limited.
Our shortcomings of memory, plus imagination, produce factors
which tend to reveal symbolically more inwrought things.
It is not futile to strive for reality in the unsubstantiated
things of mind and, when fearless, it becomes great artistry.
Man is an infinite aptitude of possibility: apart from his
media, necessity is the limiting factor.
Diverse knowledge is unnecessary, but aptitude for it is
essential to wisdom.
Fundamental simplicity has an infallibility.
All things are linked by a bi-sexual correspondence, and
aloneness is an impossibility.
The essential predisposition to love all things for a while is
intoxication.
We fail to understand the mysterious lives we live, the
plurality of things and the singularity of Ego. Whatever stage
we reach is through unities. In relating ourselves—the unknown,
the receding—everything that escapes the geocentric seems more
significant.
The reality we know is interconnected with the unseen by some
design of thought we have yet to know.
The superman becomes idiot saying "I am the Law". Outside of
himself he is a dangerous somnambulist for he leads the blind.
Beauty and ideals should be strong social passions, not
ornaments hidden in a closet.
A mental purging of meanings is essential for a more vital
thought-stream to shape our near ability.
Man must become a realist first or he will remain a fool.
There is pause in life when all becomes unreal and ominous; a
transitory phase which becomes our level of life. A decision, a
choice, has to be made existentially, facing oneself, not from
abstracts or logic but from our innate good and evil.
Matter alternating, evaporating, exhausting, correlates with our
means of dynamic extension—our means of obsession.
All things are in flux, nothing is static, but our truths are
not immutable, and dynamic differences appear contrary to our
interrelatability.
Ideas are more prolific when the struggle is for the unconceived
rather than for the known.
We have forgotten Heaven's urgent significance because we
overstep our real needs and go about the world mouthing
doctrines of salvation like mountebanks with nostrums.
The beauty we realize is the level of our intensity and the
difficulties we overcome are the measure of our vibrant
expression...
Sentiment (our full emotion-equation) is the inbetweenness, man
and his span, ego and all else that links him to the mind-soul
reciprocally. The common right of infinite relationships is yet
free, strengthening, inspiring, becoming a tireless search for
Truth and
Ideals.
The Life-Force is the greater logic we overlook by our blind
ethics.
Lies extend their province, their mistakes are limiting—doors
shutting on te Mind's edifying requests—and the splendid figure
of Art changes to a decadent witchcraft.
Long have we known the near without knowing its lineage. Ego
experiences more by recognition of diversity than of likeness.
Originality expresses our surprise at things felt more than at
things understood.
The body is organic knowledge with cryptic signatures of its
begetters, to which we add a dithering paraphrase.
We do not live eternally yet seek knowledge of eternity.
A mystic is one who experiences more of himself than he can
articulate.
Until we are increative we are only circumstantial causes of
change.
We form our mental conclusions via language and posit exact
logic as considered evidence from insecure and ambiguous
ideographs, further involved by legerdemain grammar and
propositions become presumptuous. Better by far are definitions
by symbolism and analogy, for at least they show subjective
relationships between particular states and objective facts.
Acts of judgment, however arrived at, are also involved in the
apprehension of those relationships which are called
'meanings'—re-remembered associations. Also, meaning is involved
with concurrent thinking from unknown presuppositions or
inherencies.
Abandoned, undigested and forgotten impressions and ideas desire
their evolutionary fulfilment and become substitute figures of
their meanings. Most abstract thinking and dreaming is
meandering in this limbo of symbolic thought-forms; such
fortuitous gleaning is in the direction of inspiration from
something more potent.
The only content of reality we know is Ego, or potential Ego:
the thesis that there is related Ego—something like our own that
can feel in some manner—has credence because all things are
parts of a whole: hence, everything has equal significance and
an essential and universal interdependence.
A renaissance: new forms represent the greatest daring in Art.
If there were no new forms then there would be new
juxtapositions and superimpositions.
Union of 'Self to Ego' is effected by obeying our more latent
ideas. Self is the real thing, Ego what we realize of it.
Generalizations are ephemeral and prove only the average 'as
now'; the exceptions prove the possibility of great differences
by changes. The longevity of cultures, hierarchies,
institutions, ideas or beliefs do not prove their general worth
or truth, often the reverse (a hundred million people can
be wrong). The exceptions are usually overlooked. For instance,
the oldest and most lasting of religions, the earliest
Egyptians—a complete theology in itself—is now defunct, sans
priests and followers. It maintained the most rigid of
conventions and limits and, throughout, the culture remained
archaic.
If the Mind is a refraction of the Soul then it also comprehends
and manifests all the different realities and the imaginings we
see and feel. Our axial vent subconsciously gives forth all
'ideas' from this conceptive faculty, from this ever-changing,
contracting and expanding speculum, yet always coalescing and
designing a different pattern as a whole. Thought (as thinking)
with its associating and reasoning faculties is our nexus of
Soul, Mind, and Body. Its unified impact on matter is
consciousness. Ingressive to thought is the dominant 'Id' of
desire, the kinetic factor, initiating a constant incest and
spacious fornication of which we are unaware in spite of
controls; except, maybe, through those intrusive symbol-ideas
that become intelligible forms only via inspiration from these
complex unities by some other synthetic coition. The result
becomes for us a work of genius.
What is Space? A place of prefiguring, of mutation, of
refunctioning that allows the procreated design for birth. For
Space cannot contain emptiness—always developing, extruding,
drifting, and forcing deposits into the closets of time as
correlatives; accumulating and re-shaping to drift again in some
stream of air or water.
What is conscience? From our likes and dislikes made law, it
assumes a beauty-reflex of our inherent values of good and evil,
forming a personal religious culture begotten by the training of
our Ids.
Our will proceeds from and is formed by preceding efforts, and
so our further deliberations will again predetermine our future
will, 'free' or not to control our instincts by transference.
What is the nexus of cause and effect? One answer is by the
question: what stimulates cause to effect? To illustrate: I
desire to make a pot, and from idea to creation all that is
required is the 'material', which is definitely the medium
between idea and creation. But we have already presumed certain
factors, there is already a concatenation—'Necessity' has
stimulated and 'Ability' has permitted conation. Whether
initial stimulus is from without or within it is here identical,
because related to the capability of the particular person. So,
what we call 'mind' is a constant concatenation answering
necessity leveled to our ability.
Wisdom is in the realization of the mysterious
incomprehensibility of all things. Whoever the designer, he is
the generator, and all the partial disclosures of our knowledge
prove this. I find it difficult to recognize my own part in
anything.
If I am begotten of all yesterdays, then Ego (made of memories
become flesh) is my only lamp for the tomorrows.
Memories are the ghosts of experience seeking to revive, to
re-birth in us.
In those things in which Man is unlike his Gods he is unlike
himself.
Having realized one's own self as a refraction of all other
selves and the gods, man becomes more of himself with an
inclusive awareness. But by conscious selflessness we become
automata of our frustrations—fit subjects and media for the
stray astrals of the Qliphoth: a 'death' in that it is the
negation of our own life.
I teach the multiplicity of all things—of the gods, of the
milliard millionth. Oneness is always dividing; 'being' is
something of everything in all things, but nothing obtains
except by the casual unities of separates that make our
differences. When a man realizes his essential separateness and
sees himself as everything else, his only virtue is to further
differentiate himself from otherness, then only has he won
manhood towards Godhood.
My gods have grown with me, hence I never outgrow them; they are
my potential.
There are no final conclusions. We are born believing in means
to an ultimate, and life is such desire believing. Therefore,
believe in the power of belief, and that sincerity will
integrate sufficient Will for its purposes. Accept the 'as if',
to evoke from your unknown self a means of transcendentalism and
the magic of dynamic change.
Reactions are often worse than the thing reacted against.
Anathema quadrivial: the dark obliques from zodiacal signs, the
evolutionary-parental chains, the environmental matrix, the
obsession from foiled appetitive urges: thus are we born
prehensive to, and slaves of, inheritances.
Creating a necessity is our utility.
The Divine effluvium is an eternal creative diversity: we are an
ingression by contingency from which we simulate the creative
when sufficiently individualistic.
The Subject understanding the Object by 'as if', is an
ingressive emotional experience.
Those who would know themselves through their gods as other than
their own selves—how blighted they appear, how sadly lost are
they in their tautological theories. They too shall awaken from
their adolescence and realize that the less we now of ourselves
in other gods the nearer we are to the vast wisdom of our flesh.
The soul is a continuum: all perceptions are relatable,
therefore real. The continuum of all aspects of knowledge is as
a background to consciousness, the past becoming explicit to
extend our Self.
Only the refrangible 'comes through', a filtered quasi-reality,
not the 'thing' itself. The noumenon of mind is seemingly
susceptible only to partitiveness—as phenomenal form. Thus all
our awareness is reflected, partitive, with a linear 'I' as
consciousness which motivates our faculties into actuations. Yet
over and above this we have that queer feeling which attempts to
get behind, to rationalize the unclarifiable. But we never do,
being dimensionally chained and bed-companions to Mrs.
God or the misused Id.
So, rightly or wrongly, I think this;—What was once free, casual
and formless, seeks arbitrary laws, is precipitated into Time
and dimensional form with definite functional purpose and
direction about which we can only guess. Object: to realize all
probabilities within definite limits, as yet unreached. These
extend and allow formative desire through necessity of
realization by excreative means. How much or how little is
possible is bound up in a 'mystic' belief of ourselves which we
know only as possible potency.
The infinite Cosmos, the Milky Way, and all therein manifest
from organism—thus all things continue. There are no
alternatives or different derivatives. So, without truth are
such assertions that we did not originate ourselves of our own
free will (or otherwise). We do not know—our amnesia
covers so much. All our early history and potential, now latent,
unbeknown yet, which were Unities, Truth, Freedom, etc., are now
separate, untrue, powerless, or appear diverse—all vice-versas.
But the eternal ever-varying flux of our media-relatability is
as the ebb and flow of our capacity towards greater affinity
with all possibilities within the ever omnipresent mind, as
flesh, to manifest.
We are a great company: none walks alone, but with a formidable
host of familiars, however we may clothe, shut out, or prohibit
them. There is a veritable funeral procession of dead selves and
loves always in attendance.
We presuppose that our processes of thought and conation are
those of Nature, whereas they are a conditioned process with
limited technique within our understanding: in no manner are we
spontaneous—though other powers in us may simulate such when we
are sufficiently automatic.
Even to see myself in others, all so much alike, the same beast
amuck—rather let me know trees and have friendship with plants.
The Devil's usual disguise is authoritativeness under another
name.
We know our lineage is of all things, yet the deepest thought,
the wildest guesses are futile answers as to why we exist. The
answer may be tied up in some form of pleasuring now unknown to
us but not to our early originations... we never reach the first
cause.
The diversities and differences of sentient beings are
determined by planted functional desires which it is our purpose
to change. We become what we desire most, and, usually,
different to what we hope; repayment comes first.
Our levels are determined by our selectivity and visualizing
ability.
Our adequacy is achieved by the constant effort of emulation;
stale self-sufficiency
has never inspired or won much energy.
The ethical question resolves itself into a search for the
principal motive of man's endeavour, i.e., his manner of action.
The Stoic acts with no 'intent' of evil or injury to others.
Therefore we must will against all fears and evil for essential
good; for so man shall endure all travail.
Where there is life there is a degree of consciousness, however
shadowy, with all its interrelating protenses. When the
homogeneity of matter breaks or divides, activity manifests as
multiples, and individual modifications begin.
We are overstuffed with words—now a veritable systole and
diastole of mind. Whether or not we articulate correctly we
suffer post-prandial torpor.
Neither Universe nor man is complete, completing, or dissolving,
but resurging and re-indulging existing forms, reshaping them to
form new pleasures of flesh impacting flesh. At least, so I who
love fat women imagine.
When thoughts dissociate themselves from the correspondences and
gradations between contrasting things, they will reform
abundantly with new correlatives as emotional content in our
resultant processes of re-arrangement. Final representation is
an asymmetrical balance... this 'seeing strangely' is the level
of our genius.
Reasoning and its interferences are a screever's logic, useless
for putting us in contact with reality—all reality being more
abstract than actual, a para-ideal we know and cannot grasp. The
nearest we attain to it is by a union of all the senses. A
personal sentiment can, by suitable emotional channeling, be
affective and can associate and express nuances and 'abstracts'
which cannot be defined in thought... an unplanned latent
portraying as in Nature.
In our relation to Cosmos, if significance is measured by our
increative ability then we are of no greater worth than the
amoeba. Nature permits no interrogation; our techniques merely
imitate, and only if so allowed. Deceiver, do not further
deceive yourself.
The function and purpose of life seem almost an experiment in
genius; a chosen few at one time.
Our early acceptance of things as they are, as dominant reality,
later becomes overshadowed by doubt and we conclude that evil is
real, potent, and contrary to Almightiness. But, lest we forget,
there was no evil until man's advent and therefore there
is a certain madness in seeking a 'rational' explanation of
life. Things totally without knowledge seem to function
perfectly and are alone beyond good and evil.
The Mind is protean, ever-including, but all our ways and means
are governed by multiple laws of limits which cannot be
transgressed easily, although elastic, alterable and changing.
Man cannot break natural laws yet he may break himself against
them. The body's limits save us many stupidities.
Whatever we commit to life unknowingly, concurrently causes a
subtle superfetation which forms our media for ubiquitous
thoughts which form our Ego: then Soul steps in. We are always a
functional throwback, the articulation of past latencies
clamouring for reformation. The complex development of body
becomes a more elastic medium for Ego, Mind and Soul to work
through. The purpose of life appears as the conversion of matter
from collective uniformity (stinking lump) into specialized
separatenesses, i.e., a diversity of individuals. Hence
there is no universal brotherhood based on equality, there being
no age-group of experience, just the reverse. Time relates us to
ability. Whatever our claims concerning interrelatedness, this
is governed not only by heritage but by aptitude. Ability indeed
has to be deserved the hard way—the way of techniques and
efforts.
The body is the stuttering puppet of the mind, beginning as
automatic and becoming autonomous. A transference—the puppet
becomes the showman.
There is a tendency towards theosophic paranoia and mental
diarrhea such as "There is no law beyond—Do what thou wilt".
This backward conceit serves as the highest abstract of the
occult equaled only by the bawdy, meaningless scribble of youth
and evinces a great fear of responsibility. Our own laws are
arbitrary and may be broken but we do not escape the
consequences of their violation. None is beyond Good and Evil,
Time or Dimension, with their laws and limits. Not one word, not
one gesture, not one graph proves otherwise.
All our integrations stem from our intro-extrovertive ability; a
mental breathing—give, take and remake.
Hopes and fears form the arch of most religions and creeds;
concretely or abstractly there is little more from which to
build them. What of mysticism?—a more enrapt self-indulging,
more gaudy, the more common denominators: fortuitousness and
escapism clothed in hyperbole, the old myths surrounding and
hiding the dominant 'Id': "I am my own law", it sayeth. Hope on,
for you are much more than you are: much more than you will ever
guess as possible.
These are the 'Ids': self-protection, nutrition and
sensation—breeding every hybrid and abortion by constant
grafting, cross-breeding, against their, and our, intended
purpose, or so it seems. What cloudy enemies, what astounding
conceptions, mythologies, ideologies, lies, half-truths,
frustrations, transferences, they have spawned and still
spawn—all deceptions blinding us again and again. But ever,
through this jungle have they created their good and evil—a
'conscience' which none has yet over-ridden, murdered or
superseded. Here, no prayers please; therefore let us smile at
our bloodiness in defeating only ourselves.
Here dwelleth delusion: a man sees a coiled rope and imagines it
a snake, and thereby is afraid and runs away in terror. The rope
is real, and still a rope; the fear suffered with the reaction
is also real although bred of imagination. The delusion was
caused by poor observation. Yet some would have it that because
things are not what they appear to our casual glance, or because
'reality' does not entirely disclose itself at once—therefore
everything is illusion. It proves that our imaginings from
illusion are real in as much as they react on us in the same
manner as if from reality.
We survive more through cowardice than courage.
Symbolic creation: a chair is not explained by its parts nor by
its material or quantitative measurement. Chemical analysis and
mathematics will not disclose all its meanings or origination. A
chair 'becomes' from necessity. The functional unity begat the
conception, design and form, which themselves are governed by,
or adapted to, the material and ability available. Beauty is
subsequent to utility—whether a chair is evolved over a period
by co-operative ability or not is immaterial to the argument.
Thus, the abstract of a chair involves: Mind, Thought,
Conception and reification—everything else is integrated in
these. From which we may surmise that our essential necessity
(i.e., what we sufficiently desire) will evolve from abstract
reality (Mind) for our needs to function further. Nature appears
indifferent as to whether our demands are good or evil.
The formula of 'Arrivism' is made operative by vivified belief
and a fearless self-positivism. The animus is imminent,
generating spontaneous action by immediacy towards the object.
There is no potentiality as such, only 'as now' possibility; an
attitude devoid of qualities and aberrant only from 'I am'. The
arrivist pre-forms as conceived; he does not know of failure
which would be procrastination only. Level is never
incommensurate to ability thus inspired.
Intelligence is the ability of composition, our power or
arbitrary conjunctionalism giving harmony and significance to
incongruities.
Darkness is only a degree of light, imperceptible to us. There
is no absolute antithesis, only variation, except for God who is
the antithesis of all things we desire him to be and must
transpose to our selves.
Dreams are another and future reality, not what we suppose, nor
what we desire, but what we will receive of our perverted self
and its allergies to life. The whole process is a symbolic
extroverting of secret adumbrations from the past, the events
masquerading as metaphor or allegory in an ideographic language.
Beware the demagogue with a plausible ideology for your
betterment, he is a dangerous throwback, mass murder his
weapon.
So we are necessary, and necessitarians of a limitless
necessarianism. Things become only by making the necessity...
Gods, Souls, Bodies... anything will obtain, leveled to the
necessitousness of the aspirant.
Art should show us the likeness we desire to know, the likeness
we miss in our day-to-day seeing.
...It is true that it is untrue, that we cannot believe the
unbelievable (i.e., the unrelatable). If I cannot relate to God,
am I more than the fetish-maker? And can you say this is ungodly
if all things are God? For all things being God and his Will, he
also determines the will of man and is also sentenced to this
prison of the body. Again the same crapulence of Godliness!
Thank God we are not a conception from what is conceived as
God... things are bad enough...
Poverty fosters more illusions than wealth, hence the poor are
the imaginative ones. Results are delayed—sometimes till the
third and fourth generation.
Be enthralled by what you observe, and later critical of what
you deduce. Unless one is hypersensitive to things there is no
significant response.
Why do we exist? Our chief function is to live fully,
however near the negations. What difficulties we make of this
life and of the living! For most it has become a survival, a
foregoing and forgetting—at best, a narrow selecting... There
are more who would escape life than retain it.
All ways to Heaven lead to flesh: our reorientation and 'ascent'
from Earth must begin and return here. Nothing is obtained
except by desire, and our only medium is flesh: appetent mouth
and grasping hand. In the midst of reality we strive, and
unreality is our accomplishment. Hence I teach the equal reality
of all things—man and his illusions. Dreams shall
flesh... some day.
There is a lamentable display of 'Thinkers' shadow-fighting
their fears: automata actuated by their committed untruths,
seeking release from self-created illusions.
To be repressed by others—our greatest evil? Finally to
uninhibit and express ourselves is usually a greater curse.
He who places his pleasure in one thing has little to please him
and a certainty of dissatisfactions...
Unless emotionally exhausted, we have no time for creative
ideas, deep thought, or silence.
Sufficient amenities for life, liberty of mind, a disciplined
body, fecundity of conception and facility of expression—what
more should one need of Freedom unless to rob others of theirs?
The duality I know is between man and man, man and nature, man
and his God. Man is a revolt and his apparent duality the Great
Mystery.
Truth is sustenance, and there is nothing untrue anywhere; it
may oft appear so because we cannot relate it accurately.
Many men seek virgins for pleasuring, whereas I am oft content
with an old bitch. Sound practice if you have imagination.
The object of loving is to be the beloved, and the begetting is
evidence of consummation. There is no contraception in the great
procreative effort to become ourselves.
You cannot start from not-belief and hope to flow into the
stream of belief, as if this were possible. Usually, the
inveterate Id believes for us.
The secret of happiness is to be in harmony with yourself—little
more is permitted or desirable. Seek your own environment and
adapt it: do not ask others what is 'yourself'. I know but
vaguely what I have made from memory into myself.
If there is a law of Nature we may know, it is the
'indispensability of differentiation' and constant
metamorphosis—i.e., the convertibility of everything into every
other thing to emerge again as more distinct.
If the voice of the majority is divine it has never articulated.
The majority has only borrowed ideas.
All culture, discovery and Ideals emanate from a few individuals
who have seldom sought power or wealth for their own ends.
The significance of Greek art is that it is a possible Ideal
derived from the average; its potentialities are unexploited.
Care nothing for any social activity unless unplanned.
The unknown is a metaphor, spacious, undulating and exhibiting.
Our emotional reaction to it becomes our meaning of life of
which few only are partly conscious.
There is no deliberate, pre-planned passage from the particular
to the universal. The passage from the concrete to the abstract
is mainly casual and takes various forms, amongst which
knowledge does not contribute much since all ways are
legitimate. 'Guessing' has been more successful.
All creative influence begins inwardly or inspirationally,
however exhibited, often unmethodically or chaotically. It
subsequently becomes deductive, formal, doctrinal, or
mathematicalized.
A known aspect reveals a new one, our presence being able to
make associations with it. Imagination is still the best copula
in the field of possibilities.
The best commands my responsibility; the highest in me is
stimulated by dormant egotism. What is known without is the
exhausting part—a heavy heritage that seems to baulk as well as
help.
Beginnings and endings have no reality—they are dramatic
changes.
There is no excess towards beauty—man's vulgarities are vast.
I accept only equity: no law or doctrine can be sacred to me
while my nature discloses none.
While learning, always do what you would avoid doing;
difficulties will not cease but fear of them will and this is
the beginning of great facilities. Those who give up adopt the
ease of convention and others' idioms of arrestment.
Nature reveals first by our imitating her and then by our
denying her.
What is it we desire of each other? The usual blood issue, a
less known unity, or our hungry deficiency seeking
fulfilment...?
The nexus between cause and effect is that of immediacy.
The omniscience of the Soul throws persuasively over all things
its shadow of Knowledge.
Our whole potentiality lies in our ability habitually to feel
things sensationally.
Our truth is the totality of our observations when confirmed by
our atavisms.
The key to all metaphysical phenomena (mind, soul, etc.) is
wrapped up in our needs.
What sounds the depths and conjoins Will and Belief? Some
inarticulate hieroglyph or sigil wrought from nascent desire and
rhythmed by unbounded Ego.
We pray... like a convulsed Naiad transfixed by rape.
There is a Grimoire of symbology, of vague phonic nuances that
conjoin all thought and is the cryptic language of the
subconscious world.
Deep silence and lonely longing unfreeze the all-prolific mind.
Life is a wanton whose price is death.
Our thought-patterns result from quantitative aggregations,
gradations, variations, juxtapositionings and proportionings
derived from our evaluations of 'other stuff', stylized by our
inherent ethos. Significance depends on our ability to re-design
Nature, 'as if'.
Cognition has no law, but we induce processes from some latent
and inveterate syllogism conjoining other opposites by relatives
and co-relatives; our illations become intensive and extensive,
'as if' true.
Our lives are spent in finding the solution, a reciprocity of
para-rational creativity...
Normality should be your total difference from it.
All things are temporal feelings of Things; and Perceptions,
however abstract, are realities of a reality. Existence is
prehensive flesh seeking new unities, an unpatterning process
from an innate diaper, reshaping by relating and unrelating,
including and excluding. There is no conclusive ingression or
exclusion from probabilities. For all creativity is away from
constant uniformity and finalities. Causes are from older
experience predetermining its own resurrection as actuality in a
new difference. Thus the primal purpose is originality
for pleasure, compensating for the travail of change. Ego, as
entity, is a concretion of selective affinities leveled by our
ability of recollection. Nothing becomes except by the effort,
as mutual emotional apprehension. How quickly we tire and seek
safety! I would ask you sometimes to forget all safety, and deny
your God before you are forsaken, when fatigued.
God within us? Animals would have a better chance... Be certain
that all ancestry is within, whatsoever it may be, and that it
is possible to be a corruption of a finer thing. Therefore I
would ask you to look within—destroy all that leads away from
the Ideal, for your purpose and survival is by a further
'thisness' of yourself and not a 'thatness' of others.
There is virtue in understatement and elimination as against
emphasis and buildup: a significance in omitting, yet appearing
complete.
All genius is a conversion from obsession by suppressive
factors, giving the simulations of the desire and finding
release by conative expression: madness the failure.
When we strive to make things logical to us instead of ourselves
to them, then are we makers of ugliness; affections fail and we
decay and all we touch suffers.
If I obey my Ids, whom do my Ids obey? And when my dog obeys me
against his wishes, does he obey me or his Ids? (Which means we
also obey external influences we know nothing of.) If desires
were not satisfied by transmutation, sublimation, substitution
and other forms of transference, then we should be nothing more
than a scrap-heap of thwarted impulses. How often can we desire
uninhibitedly, and satiate? Also, where there is human
congress, the first essentials are religion, law, morality, and
conventions with their corollary of reward and punishment—the
harness of the Ids. Only the Stoic seeks and practices virtue
for its own sake: not from fear, but by obedience to his Ides or
his Gods.
Evolution is a process of change by creating variation, a
constant amalgam of inexact sub-divisions, increasing
differences, that follow a law of asymmetry based on
constant dissymmetry becoming more and more complex until the
original prototype ceases to know itself or its relatedness to
all its multiple forms.
To speak of one God is equivalent to speaking of one man, one
universe, etc. Constant multiplicity is the law; amalgamation
and emergence to produce the greater individual.
There is an inverse 'Pygmalionism': The reification of your
Ideal shall engender life in you. By one sincere belief
be-lived, the Soul is nearer and discounts your uncommitted
things to life. Remember: all law, of its own necessity, is
endowed with good and evil and entails commitments and
obedience; for all belief becomes your law.
Our going forth to find the greater Self is by the path we know
least; by losing ourselves until we find ourselves.
Whether God made us or is within us, we are not yet a
reflector—in whole or in part—of God. No syllogisms or
revelations prove anything except our own signature and that we
are like a work evolving and completing, of one great
artistry—now plus our own bloody vandalism!
If the outer world is not a delusion then our concepts therefrom
certainly give birth to illusions, and we are as vaulted
catacombs inhabited by strange phantoms that wait to suck that
energy to resurrect, to live, by a memory of that time when we
made flesh from dreams.
There is no greater mystery than man because of his
imperfections, his great love of falsity, his great hatred of
his Self.
Ego, with all its varying degrees of consciousness, is our light
in the darkness of the unseen and unknown, for it has
infinite relatability that will replenish our light.
We often feel more in strangers, in new things, forgetting our
nearer relatives, so seek relation elsewhere. No! Not when... I
am forgetting the sticky anticipated near-legacy... that damned
something for nothing.
Chaos is the hyle of order and the future design. If this
universe sprang into existence from non-intelligence,
purposelessness, and if everything is an accidental by-product,
then we are bastards of futilities. Things exhausting and
reforming may appear as chaotic, an essential fluidity... There
is nothing accidental, everything is a predestination of
incredible intelligence and order, and to some extent in
ourselves—also incredibly—hence the doubts. Never should we
doubt our possibilities via duality.
Thinking becomes an inverse reflection of our emotional needs
with resultants becoming changed to some other object.
The only 'word' we could attribute to God would be equity:
there need be no other denominator of law, morality and
behaviour.
Damnation: how much must we hate to love? How much destroy to
live? And how much unlearn to know anything whatsoever!
With some, love of masquerade has become a categorical
imperative; when professional a kind of masturbation, imitation
without proper means.
The pre-requisite for wisdom is to distinguish what we accept as
true, from what is true for us.
The law of the great Id: to trespass all laws.
Nature would be gladly rid of us by making us autonomous.
Is it the 'otherness' in ourselves that makes us loathe others?
Of our solitariness: great depths are sometimes sounded; Truth
hides in company.
Solecism: 'God is all giving'... or else an all-devouring
Vampire taking only bloody repayment. The answer: our
gods so do.
Do not be over-proud: the forgotten iota, the unseen germ, can
kill or make you slip on your own midden.
Such as they are, and whatever they are, hold fast to your
beliefs—if your own. There is nothing more indigenous to
yourself and its effort towards becoming.
When desire arises from necessity and is acceptable to
functional purpose it will formulate aesthetically and
have great relationships, experiencing the full emotional scale.
Inconsequential thinking implicates more innate predispositions
which eventually formulate, become spatial, and slather over
into small things.
What we make factual ceases to have abstract value and becomes
its own antithesis.
Life is a half-truth.
Syllogism of predicament: Do we understand a thing by knowing
it? By possessing it? And when we understand a thing
sufficiently do we desire it?
All thoughts are dissatisfied desires which gives the enthusiasm
for life: Thought is abstract semen seeking sentience.
Man's chief attributes are his illusions.
All things are ex-copulatory: Everything is begotten of another
similar thing with tendency of dissimilarity. So, any variant of
a variable increases variability:
Thus:
The promiscuous superimposition of two modifications of the same
thing is further differentiation: God manifests as man, as man
manifests God: otherwise everything reduces to absurdity.
Man has latencies he has yet to conceive of: ecstasy is the
stimulate of manifestation.
Of flesh we transfer/transmit by unity; our potentials, our
absoluteness are by the same means: The nexus of all things is
consummation.
We distort facts into fictions and our fictions serve as facts:
Truth.
"Suggestio falsi": But to my naive mind, a naked bottom is a
naked bottom, and a large colourful one equal to a sun-rise—both
are freely accessible and pleasurable.
I cannot conceive of any religion (involantry tribute) so
profound, as appreciation of the flesh, it has never been
sufficiently so, no texture equals flesh.
All intersubjectivity is from flesh impacting flesh.
Truth is our pragmatism, nothing is possible through freedom
because there isn't any, we make our own wants from limits.
Gods are usually our presuppositions to explain ourselves.
Our conative ability is always adequate to our necessity, not
our conceits.
Presential existence is what we make contiguous to Ego.
We cannot appreciate the daily miracles because we have a sore
thumb—we always have a sore thumb.
Reality is not apprehended through our conceptions of it,
remains a mystery: our concern is making our own form of
reality.
Everything returns to its source? Probably, and most certainly
if we are originators. All things change all the time and
develop from the simple into vast complexities so we are
uncertain of their origins.
Is the originator greater than his works? Let us have—Hope,
Faith and Charity.
A touch of lusty levity cures the illusions of our hemianopic
moralities, sensibilities and righteousness; for the
life-force is not blind—we are.
If God is manifest in all phenomena, our reactions have
outstripped the Devil himself.
If our ethics were as logical as our techniques and methods of
design they would at least have appropriateness.
Whether the psyche develops with the body, or whether a
transmutation occurs or is created by us, matters little as long
as we endow it with God-like form.
Chaos wedlocked to chaos gave birth to order.
There is no impossibility as to what 'form' conscious life may
take. Because of our infinite relationships, potentialities are
there. The shapes of form are not yet exhausted and there are no
miracles beyond living matter. Though flesh in its most radiant
beauty is miraculous, it does not imply that Nature has
exhausted all possibilities of pleasuring in flesh.
You are still inchoative, unfit for eternity, hence you face
changes and changes...
Whether you behave as common stone or as precious jade, be
expedient unto all men. Hence in Rome do not necessarily as the
Romans but adroitly be yourself.
Materialists state that "mind is the accidental product of
matter", which is equivalent to saying that a chair—or any
human-made object—accidentally produced man and the mind, and
the reasoning that reified it. Materialists have to swallow
their own statements. They use their intelligence (such as it
is) to deny mind's existence! Our evidence of separate existence
lies in our reaction to things; my feeling is my apperception,
i.e. Ego; for what I feel is 'consciousness as I', which may
not be felt by anyone else.
Symbolic cosmogony: the Absolute alone is arbitrary; the design
of Cosmos and Creation is Its work. The Soul reflects the whole,
refracting it partitively into the mind which becomes the
storehouse of experience as Memory. Thoughts are the evoked past
images regrouped and patterned by the reasoning faculty. These
transferences act on their vehicle, the body. This multiple
impact causes the things we call life, and degrees of
consciousness we name Ego (self) which ultimately 'takes over'
and becomes a synthetic imitation or analogy of the whole—always
'as if', conclusively but never conclusive.
There has always been this self-subconscious doxology: "I
believe in the Arabian Nights", or "in all my wishful thinking",
and this is certainly as near truth as any other truth—usually
more so. Truth is—what we make Truth.
Passion is purchased by passion.
When we exploit the extent of solitude we find it is more
crowded than a great company, and the abode of our own
realities. There is no retirement from solitude and we fear it
when conscience is actively malignant.
When we find a friend in ourselves our enemies are powerless.
The sexually indolent are as moral suicides; they waste
themselves for small appetites, and those who fret the flesh
shall be cursed by something worse.
I love the greeting smile of Gods and strangers—I never know
what it may mean!
To profit from the Soul is as difficult as evoking it.
Only dominant desire shall compel us to do successfully what we
want to do.
Even knowing better, when self-forgetful we live on borrowed
clichés.
Accept a favour only by imposing one.
The wise read, think, and accept as an opinion, as evocative
merely, never as truth or as a conclusion for themselves.
Conventions, habits, fashions, make us either outmoded or
servile to them.
Man's unpleasured reasons have cut loose and he is lost in a
world of mad hatred.
Man is rather to be defined as a perversion of himself... living
as if everything gave support to his untruth. Being corrupt, it
becomes a virtue to disobey ourselves.
We have the false hope that death will stop all other
calamities.
Learning teaches us how much we may lose in the process.
If our virtues are generally faults carried to excess, it is
because there is a little badness at the beginning.
When we see a great work of art—we live again.
Psychology has become the best seller—the modern work of bawdy
fiction.
Knowing ourself is like sleeping with a dragon.
We know little of truth yet there is nothing without it.
Thoughts direct and words govern our lives.
All secrets of Nature are kept by a kind of telling: they are
under our nose.
Systems and logic become a conspiracy against originality, so
great ideas are ill birthed.
All of us would be lost in freedom.
Friendship is the best mutual self-indulgence and the only
necessary correlator of all contacts. To begin with, be friends
with yourself.
Man is the unnotable exemplar of much more than he ever
remembers.
Life proceeds only by its ability to create difference,
nothing would emerge from the same damn thing after another.
When old memories are stimulated by some ephemeral event,
thought responds and we can force thinking by association
and be fully conscious that we are doing so—matter being the
vehicle of mind. To this fractional extent we can control the
content of memory.
Faults made habitual become our idioms and style.
Nothing easy has much new substance or growth.
The eternal alternations compel our untruth, unless we
re-orientate.
To feel and to understand are an equation.
The main premise of Religion is the demanding of complete
acceptance by faith of a dogmatic thesis and conclusion, an 'as
if' that explains the abstracts and mysteries of life. As proof,
it is asserted that God, or Cause, being so miraculous in
its/his workings as to be beyond comprehension, over-rides all
bafflement at contradictions and incongruities. I admit: Nature
has accomplished the impossible—has she not created man? If you
can so delude yourself, and stomach this stuff, it 'works'
partially—which means that the poorest 'as if' conation is
better than non-belief, and gives something—if only a
shadowy postulation in death, or a palliative by
psycho-paralysis in life.
The inbetweenness of cause and effect is a sensuality: we are
always experiencing more, or less. Experience is interjacent to
all purpose and desire and only partly disclosed to Ego. Real
and vivid experience goes deeper, oft-times within lightning
reactions, as when the mind releases an obligatory entity, a
'thought-symbol' reconciling or destroying fallacies, for the
upstep of values.
For most the path of life is oesophagism—an end, not a means.
But the mind is more omnivorous and may extend or limit, to
transmute the psycho-somatic.
Schizophrenia is normal, we all have it: men and women are
modified forms of each other and retain a remissness or too much
of the other—sexual congress a making whole. Where abjured or
frustrated, schizophrenia may become pathological. There is also
the fact that we are constantly amalgamating our past selves;
the dead live on and reincarnate in us. We are many people. The
'split personality' is not usually a sharp division of our good
and evil, often more equal as such, or one a little worse than
the other. Usually the sublated personality is the better half:
hence impulsive and secret acts of generosity, hidden and
unasking love, etc., from the least expected. The pathological
type is very rare.
It is not things themselves but others connected with them that
stimulate man's hatred... so man hateth the otherness which he
encounters in himself.
"The mind in repose becomes the speculum of all creation": We
hear too much about relaxing and 'meditation'. My mind (and I
expect yours) works in reverse—the stimulus is from
without—always chaotic, procreative and spatial of strange
conjunctures; and 'repose' a period of fatigue or sleep, a
renewal of the tension necessary for contexturation of
creativity.
The question is, how do we know? "Realize
thyself", "Know thyself"—which self or which part? Such
statements are pathetic fallacies. How much of such knowledge is
possible, helpful or necessary? And what lies and delusions we
create in the knowing! Better for most to unknow what they think
they know—for their own good. It doesn't need a biologist or a
psychologist to tell us that the mind contains strata of
atavistic vestiges which, with encouragement, may degenerate
into the foulest anomalies—just give the Ids their chance! And
we also know that we may curb our greedy appetites by
redirection and by the placing of our real values outside them,
thus cultivating our better potentials. Yes!—fundamentally,
everything is as simple as that, and there is little need for
Witch-doctors. Without their 'Bell, Book and Candle' one could
go on laying these manufactured ghosts—the catch-phrases of
patho-psychology. What is appropriate to normalities is so
ungeneralizable, trivial, and transitory as to be almost a
worthless denominator. Different forms of control and
environment cause different behaviour in people, but our
mutation now is a choice for man may be the arbiter of his
genes, and Ids, if he so desires. There is still a period in
our lives when we are again malleable and acceptive and easily
transformed again to good or evil.
We surround our acts with such a palaver that no thought is
pure: a clearance, reorientation, purgation and re-believing
becomes necessary to disentangle desires. So, conation often
entails a struggle resulting in abortive and strange
after-births. Therefore weed out the clinging hindrances of
prejudices, conventions, creeds that have intertwisted in the
processes of thought, desiring a body which stultifies your
ability and makes strangers of your words and acts, and a
solecism of the inbred urge. We must make an Abraxas of our
desire, to foil all irrelevancies.
Everything in this world may be easily evoked and obtained
through evil, which being contagious needs little evoking
because everyone is relatable to it by their correlatives.
I am the power of my desire (Id).
Gods do not die but our belief in them dies through the
absurdities we attribute to them. Our changing is usually a
renaming and a reclothing of Them with new attributes.
The great sterilities: the numen and the humane in man—ever
present are stercoraceous things of greed under other names.
The numen, the soul and the body never forsake you but you
forsake them for a while.
When one sees one's reflection everywhere and sees everything in
oneself, one becomes a Stoic... or a backslider to all
pretences.
Through mind is our all-reachingness and thought is the copula;
our technique for articulating desire is limited, bad or mad.
Soul and mind are indifferent to our language but they answer
all affectiveness when conveying pure sentiment.
Beyond prediction are our uncommitted desires; none can show our
unities except a reflector of our inmost desires and beliefs.
Where Ego goeth, there only is the sensation and perception of
reality.
We call certain things 'Acts of God', or 'Fate', whereas they
are the workings of Equity from our own past good and evil.
We make words ambiguous by adding our meanings;
qualifications become endless and few understand themselves or
others.
The Absolute creates Cosmos with its aeon; and Cosmos formulates
itself dimensionally as the 'alwaysness' we know as existence—the
realizable reality—presented serially, partitively; never
known as a whole. We see only a fraction of this mighty
reflection: with different times merging at any moment, and
reacting from this recurrence of the 'then' to re-experience 'as
now', by memory, with ever changing relationship of 'I am'
through changing form, environment, desires and beliefs. The 'I'
thus becomes kaleidoscopic, illusionary, refrangible, and we
become lost to ourselves; we neither know whether we desire to
lose or to find ourselves.
We have little knowledge of ourselves, and others appear more
real than we are. We have little self-liking and hate our
reflection in others, and we thereby become unreal. No man has
seen himself at any time. There is great bathos in this search
for our unknown self and our labour to create a permanent 'I'.
We invent selves, a facade hiding what we seek. We live in a
maze of re-recollection of and re-acting to the past, hence our
dithering I.
All dimensions are equations of time and relate to shape in
space. Conception is only possible through form, and Ego is our
dimensional span.
Time, emotion, and relationship—an eternal triangle.
All that was once unconscious, intuitive or spontaneous, slowly
becomes conscious, deliberate, or arbitrary. The casual (free)
is the ideal. Verbal revelation always births harmful and
specious dogmas.
We worship most our unfulfilled emotional reflection.
The full life is extremely partitive; the best things come
unsought by complete acceptance of a particular thing.
The matrix of 'thought' is hope and fear, obverse and reverse;
man must ever crystallize his desires as potentially
fulfilled.
Progress depends not in running away from Nature, nor in
combating it, but in imitating it by our synthesis. Nature is
sufficiently plastic to give contexture to all probable
desire—when we seek more extensive form.
Poor ideas need extravagant arguments to hide their poverty.
Religious revelation is mainly hyperbole and promise without
contexture of immediacy, and so almost worthless. Artists gave
it what life and merit it had.
Over greater things we scrawl as gamin, an absurd or
vulgar calligraphy exhibiting our mean motives. Our ideologies
have become a superstructure of mud rococo superimposed upon the
classic work of Paganism or Nature.
Remove the conjunctions from a sentence and most of it becomes
meaningless. It is our power of 'abstract' conjunctivity, as
well as the copulative that gives meaning to things.
Certainly our thoughts are not free in that we cannot know
anything outside our past and present states, but we are mainly
unaware of our past or present states or their extensiveness.
Memory constantly unfolds and imagination is limitless. We think
and believe whatever we desire to believe, whatever the
motivation. There is nothing to stop us. We have the power to
direct and control our desire, whether for the things of the
body or the more abstract conceptions from the psyche as works
of Art. With growing ability our thoughts are more free in that
we gain certain powers of transference. To us, truth has
relation to how much we believe of the things we would believe
in.
Always true: I know and know not, for when we make a 'meaning'
all meanings become obscure, beyond our definition, and guessing
becomes our technique. The simple becomes complex and our logic
a tautology of qualifications that are apt to somersault to
their opposites, and will transform our original order into
chaos.
All experiences are true for us to the extent we have realized
of them. They ultimately become organic, hence the eternal
recurrence giving further disclosures and the feeling that we
have experienced them before.
Mind and body constantly constipating is a sign of permanent
invalidism.
The beautiful face covers the skull, hence beauty is the
out-product of the grotesque (no relation to ugliness).
We become like our desires: whether we desire like a God, a man,
a beast or an abortion, we become akin.
The constant process: illusions becoming true, and truths
becoming illusions.
Bollocks to Yoga: 'concentration' on one object is another
'illusion'. I've never managed it for a minute; perhaps morons
are more successful.
Without stimulation from 'without' we easily become bankrupt of
ideas.
Release from evil is more by aesthetics than by asceticism.
Learned only of our solitude is a sound personal theology.
All things realize sensationally: noting comes out of anything
except by unity.
Better to believe untruth than suffer the sterility of
unassertability. To believe anything sufficiently makes desire
connective.
Only impacts have meaning: their consequences are true and real.
The 'as if' proposition as pragmatism: if I create the
proposition that 'I am God' and the effects are extensively
realizable and advantageous, then autistic thinking has
validated itself—all things are given sufferance and all
'otherness' becomes relatable or not to it. The repercussions
become our future heritage and our good and evil.
Religion is now institutionalized fear and beggary of the Soul.
Theurgy has neither quality, its aim is self-realization or
becoming as 'God'.
The State, the Community, and Democracy are fictions—a small and
greedy hierarchy well hidden by political and religious facades,
with all the abilities of others (by hire purchase) ready to
serve their interests. Outside this, the public are all
certifiable lunatics feeding on paraphrenic print and other
literary trivia that bleat daily of democracy, or freedom, to
rob them.
The dignity of man is that he is an individual capable of
thinking and acting with virtue as from equity; from birth his
chances are not hopeful...
When our spiritual and material views of life are one, each
tactual to the other, then half our absurdities, fallacies,
wrong beliefs and judgments will cease.
Some vegetate or stagnate, others gain complacency, all hoping
for 'salvation'. Still others prefer to wander in chaos seeking
no salvation but their way of life.
When the assertion is made: "It has always been that way", I
say: "It need not be".
Passivity or sleep, as temporary release from tension: Yes!—but
no more.
Beauty contains all meanings, could we but decipher them.
Quietism, Buddhism, and other religions, everything which denies
the flesh—is the great inferiority to God in ourselves, an
escapism seeking sanctuary through fear of life and inability to
accept 'this reality'. They were hurt? Or was the odalisque
unsatisfactory or too expensive? They expected too much for too
little, or were too mean to pay—therefore: "All is illusion".
But the Stoic smilingly awaits the next shower of shit from
heaven. Stoics are not Saviours, Saints or Heroes and are often
confused and weary, yet they prefer to find their own way and to
accept life as they find it. The schizophrenics, the
melancholics and psychotics—they at least are secretive and
inflict no religions on others. They prove the possibilities and
utilities of 'as if' when totally accepted.
I am, therefore Ego alone exists as myself, never as all things
simultaneously though all things are in me—appearing and
disappearing. The mind is amoral; we determine our own good and
evil which in turn predetermine our partitiveness and unions.
Man obtains through those unions which culminate in near reality
when pleasurably metaphysic—always yielding further
possibilities: our source of continuous discovery and
revelation.
The essentials for fashioning a work of art: natural affinity
with media and the object, ability to feel deeply, and unbiased
seeing co-ordinated by enthusiasm and continued effort.
Technical skill will follow. Also, it must be a necessary act
(i.e., the urge to put down on paper or to pain must be
overwhelming).
When craftsmanship employs superlative technique then it becomes
virtuosity, an artistry equaling any form of art.
What is Abstract Art? Something we do not visualize or conceive
before reification; something we feel differently about rather
than know; something that has to express and clothe itself by
unusual means—perhaps by allegory, metaphor, or some form of
symbolism. Its processes are rapid. The meaning of the work we
can but guess, yet we may be sure that its merits and truth are
outlasting. There is little these days—few are sufficiently
sincere to be worthy.
The chaotic mind is essential: Chang Tzu said: "The mind in
repose becomes the speculum of all creation". Certainly a good
condition for re-visualization of the known and perhaps for
recalling to memory some relation from subconscious strata. My
own and most people's periods of procreative and fulgurative
ideas occur in a half sleep, as in dreaming, where I see a
creation that differs from the apparent one, a kaleidoscopic
chaos with every kind of intrusive image, tumultuous, with
surging crowds of vague familiars from the labyrinth of mind.
There are many other states of mind giving inspiration, often
unexpected; as by the provoking of anger and resentment, to
evoke oracles from the highest level of inspiration.
The hopeful invalid curses his sickness because he has lost the
power of transference; pain makes him entirely self-centred and
nothing is more devitalizing than such forced concentration.
Only by making the seen supremely tactual and our source of
conception can we express anything of the abstract or unseen.
Everything has the means of protection, nutrition and
reproduction: the great adjunct is a possible rhythm to
otherness—a symbolic dance of potentials—outside the blind cycle
of the Ids; otherwise we are mere automata.
We are as Gods according to our own ability. In this process or
progress away from Absoluteness and towards
man-conceived God we develop self-will, which must manifest by
duality and where we again face another chaotic transition. This
process has bred great individuals of all kinds whilst the bulk
of mankind drifts on in unequal development—mainly sub-human.
Thus, to be nearer our God-hood we must regress functionally and
rely chiefly on atavistic impulses of the remote past until we
are inspired by a pure instinctivism needing no other reaction
than its own automatism. Hence, ideas of our being 'God-like'
must be evoked by a process of re-membering backwards to
the primal instincts till the first 'necessary one' is reached.
The Stoic does not teach by exhortation or dogma but by
exemplary acts: neither does he indurate himself by separation
from the world and by emotional self-frenzy. His abstractions
are spaciously amoral, vista'd acceptances, and if desired,
analgetic. He is never lost when realizing himself in otherness.
He is a solipsist, self-dependent, demanding only from himself,
seeking no privileges; which does not preclude his giving and
accepting gifts.
One's whole body and being constantly exude proclivity in all
directions for affective pleasure: the sensualist for objects of
sex, the aesthete for beauty, etc. Man is generally purblind—few
know what they seek, only what they infer as extrinsic. The
Arrivist knoweth by exteriorizing the intrinsic, by evocation;
for what is not implicitly effective is never explicitly
affective.
I would teach you the new ritual of 'Arrivism': If you would
realize God you must first re-create your God within. You can
become God by expurgating—for what is without is an
exhausting-transudating past.
The immoral asceticism: having suffered they shut out the world
of reality, as the means of personal salvation. If there
is salvation it is through mankind.
The normality of life is a pastiche of unsituated occasions
seeking transient or temporal alliances by exclusions. There is
a constant process of re-sensitizing for interrelating towards
novelty: every aesthesis is a potential creative prehension;
promiscuity is change—our readaptation to new events for
emotional ingression by affinitive pleasure—selection is
predetermined by possibility from a like experience.
Shit: jumpers to conclusions, generalizationists, malapropists,
dream-fed wishful thinkers, self-hypnotized ideologists,
materialists, Maya-mongers, zombie-zenists, the dirty-tedious
apologists of Gods and men, and many other "schools"—all destroy
their own arguments by having to make use of that which they
deny. Thus: "Know that nothing can be known", which at least
implies that you know that you cannot know. I assert that
that Knowledge is the potential of knowing ultimately all
things. Again, "all is illusion", "all is unreal", "the
intelligence is false", "we have no direct experience of
personality"… ad nauseam. And so we have the reality
of illusion as one delusion falsifying another. For if the
reality we are all aware of is unreal and we, illusionary
automata without personality, and everything false, how can we
know whether it is illusion or know of an Absolute from our
unknowableness?
But! We are of the Absolute, in as much as…! Otherwise,
neither you nor I, nor our mental powers, are any 'different'
from the amoeba or indeed a speck of protoplasm. Or is there a
difference? And therein lies the answer. If we cannot
know what is the truth, then perhaps we can establish a
negative, i.e., know what is inessential to truth? The answer is
both and neither, for all things are essential to truth
because all things are true. How could anything be
untrue? Our 'confusion' is that we wrongly relate them in
time and place. Moreover, Truth (for us) is always enwrapped in
our belief, whatever it may be. But, if I cannot explain the
Truth—for it would slip away from me—then I can truly assert
I am the living truth.
Within the prison of dimensions and the cage of words we feed as
necrophagists on our catch-penny phrases. The reality we all see
and relate to—in its expansion, contraction and
superimpositions—is still unexploited, undisclosed; yet whatever
we demand of this 'reality' shall come out of it. If you demand
of Nature, autonomy, be sure you will receive a little more than
you can stomach. All this glib denial of experience is
self-defeating: are you not now experiencing my knowledge via
your own reasoning faculty—or are you a mackerel?
The 'evidence' of all things is consciousness that is
personal. Most of our positive or unitary knowledge from
experience has become unconscious, organic, and functions
automatically. It is not normally presented to perception except
when we are distressed or inspired. There are divergent ways to
knowledge, and many kinds of knowledge and truth. Only effort
towards truth discloses truth. If there are no
conclusions—though things evolve, devolve and involve—things are
ever complete ('as if'), the 'as now' always is. We do not say
that that microbe is a man or has the potentiality of a man,
although we may assert that man is a recurring form of parasite
having for himself and his kind the greatest hatred.
Life is not a means to an end, but a transference to other
means… transcending or regressing.
There is no greater evidence of weakness and inferiority than
that of greed. The creative man gives much and desires little,
while the bankrupt, decaying and diseased, needs every privilege
and the world to succour him.
A genius is not a person who has more or finer ideas than
another, but one who is able not only to visualize but to
incarnate them.
Everyone desires to escape from themselves—by any or every
means—a sublimation that leads them back to themselves.
The external Cosmos is an unlimited mirror of Ultimate
Consciousness, i.e., expanding Ego.
Illusions, delusions and fantasy, whether of normality or of
schizophrenia are the adumbrations of a para-reality sensed by
aesthesis.
When I fail to see myself in all things, then shall I
pray for enlightenment.
Though limitless, Space is faveolated and nothing escapes its
closets. Space limits and makes all partitive; we are an
experience of entity which so realizes. Beyond Time is limitless
entity and potential Identity.
Acceptance of all things extends outwards our character, through
all negations to ultimate poise.
Sense impressions yield inferior knowledge unless vitalized by
affectiveness from the psyche.
Man at one with Nature is inconceivable, duality is our way,
Prometheus our apotheosis.
Superman died with Pantheism—since then we have had only
invalids and salvationists.
Fear not the Gods, Life or Death, but your own cowardice and all
cowardly men.
All knowledge moves towards bloodless categories and nominalism;
an argument for occasional saturnalia.
I believe that the whole paraphernalia of psychology, with its
fixations, complexes, phobias, etc., would collapse like a
rotten façade with the breath of healthy environment and wise
education. By "explaining" the failure of man's behaviour and
patho-mental processes it oversteps what has determined or
planted its cause.
The sting of harsh criticism or of those things that cause us to
revolt, release spatial responses, and when deeply felt become a
means of inspiration and audaciousness—as do the silent passages
of deep meditation.
Whatever we invite or accept of our own thought must first of
all be expressed as a memory-metaphor. The figures and forms of
our less deliberate expressions become, when persistent, the
personifications of our abstracts.
Aesthetics are a reality—more permanent possibilities of
sensation.
Any concept of reality is unanalyzable, yet through the whole
physical world there runs an unknown content which must be
tactual to consciousness—for it gives it reality.
Mankind returns to its old self by the path of its deviations:
faith in genetic systems gives substance to audacious ability.
If the heart decay, pleasurable life ends and a deadly race of
elementals shall incarnate, protecting their powers by cruelty
and nihilism—gross human minotaurs. Exterior protection favoured
the development and condition of such primaeval elementals. The
human social state is not aware of this precedent, thus the
transference of powers to varied conditions of human providence
is dangerous.
Poverty of Art and Philosophy leads to great evils, and
knowledge is "justified" only as the model for greed; ideals,
and life itself, are belittled.
The unknown substrate of human cognition is inspiration—all
knowledge is subsequent.
Genius is obsession, a form of love committed to life, reshaping
and conserving itself by resisting bravely those things which
interfere with its function.
Will is but lent to us and we put it to noble or to base ends;
our good and evil stalk us and predestine our becoming.
If we are begotten of inconceivableness we are kindred.
Things that are ends in themselves tend to emotional extremes
and collapse.
Greater certainties begin where logic ends.
Through our inability to attain the factual absolute, we of
necessity seek the abstract—an antithesis of spatial merit.
"I am" is implicit in "I desire", and awaits the influx of "I
will": conation begins when these are in harmony.
In addition to merely immediate futilities, knowledge aids our
ability to conceive desirous abstractions and ideals, to seek
development from the contiguous and to join experience with old
memory.
The only mediator of the soul is automatic anoesis.
"I am I" only if "You are You"—will be a new apperception.
Being more dependent on instinctivism, inspiration, etc., as
emanating from the Supernal, needs no knowledge to shape it
until its final development.
The sense of identity is stimulated by contrasts, because the
more undifferentiated the less possible is self-realization. All
things appear ephemeral except Ego—our spontaneous tribute to
continuity.
Our contact with the soul recedes by articulation: the
phraseology of the soul is not ours, but some baffling
simplicity of parallels which may be graphed.
In a mad world mad fictions almost become essential, and I, for
one, believe that it is not essential to survival to have such
madness.
The self and the blade of grass are still potentialities in
vague eternities.
The damned course I run: this word-infected mouth has only
uttered "I am I" in every sphere; yet, overburdened with
pretences, ills and fears, seeks sleep awhile—that sweet
release.
No dogma senses the infinite or reveals much; religion is
quantity of feeling. Real belief is not taught but
recollected: belief to be real must be profound—more even, a
psychic experience, not lip-avowal.
Man's function is not only to catalogue existence but, by
artistry, to enjoin the aesthetic and the ethical as logical
social functions. The uncommitted life turns out to be deeply
wedlocked to life itself.
Logic refutes its own syllogisms; we fly madly from experience
to religion whose only alternative is another form of mania.
There is a deliberate type of madness which requires more effort
than to be sane.
Man is a chaos of strange paradoxes, an accomplishment of lies
and pretences proportionate to his knowledge.
Humanity sanctifies any cause.
Dreams are of so many diverse categories that any one means of
interpretation gives equally illogical results.
The continuum of memory is so interrupted by alternations of
consciousness that re-membering is a constant mechanism of
visualization precipitated by our hopes and fears seeking flesh.
One memory discloses another, and, when extremely recessive may
appear precognitive: all things foreshadow their advent.
From the fringes of consciousness there comes no certainty of
what we shall imagine next; only this is certain, it will be
something that succeeded previously but with a different
intensity or merit.
Our instincts condition our appreciation of beauty, and the fact
that feelings affect our welfare predicts further changes of
ethical concepts.
An adopted aesthetic culture, when foreign to our native
ability, is a disastrous commitment: false unities breed
ugliness and abortions.
Art is a means of experience by abstracts that cannot be
validated by other means.
We are in the belly of the universe however much we suffer
digestively.
All ideas, conceptions, abstracts and hypotheses are assumptions
from factual premises, but often so badly rendered as to be
worthless.
Thought processes are derived from immense incongruities though
corresponding abundantly in meaning with emotions: conception is
this sentiment becoming mosaiced.
Although of space we have little spaciousness.
Inspiration is the successful colonization of unities beyond our
prescribed sex.
In the end, we reason that the objects of which we have no
conscious experience are relative to those of which we have.
The argument that every strong and peculiar expression is merely
mental hyperbole does not explain our correct though instinctive
apprehensions, inspirations—and certain dreams.
All believe in the extraordinary proceeds from our once-virgin
astonishment at existence itself which induces a propensity
towards the marvelous that receives a check only by redirection
and relearning. But our reasoning and our learning are both
forged by presumptions. If experience gives authority to
testimony, recognition by ideas does the same.
We are never fully aware of things except by the influx of
sexual Will awakening us.
Pain and pleasure: neither exists without a medium. We make our
own evil—there is no malignity in Nature. Man, in his efforts to
violate Nature is himself violated.
Truth is an equation of time-space; untruth is unrelated to
immediacy.
Life is insatiable desire, persistent yet ever-changing. It
strives for expression by dramatic unities. We are afraid of it
by heaped-up conventions and even stranger ethics.
The familiar induces fatigue-indifference; let nothing be seen
in this manner. Let seeing be as vision—every sight a new
seeing. Fatigue is far less frequent when this is the constant
attitude.
Sincerity is difficult in the stress of transitory modality and
the kaleidoscopic chaos of near and belittling events.
We believe only as deeply as we have experienced of the
believed.
All things fornicate all the time.
…And remember, you shall suffer all things and again suffer:
until you have sufficient sufferance to accept all things.
Our understanding—indeed all art and science—is fundamentally a
relationing and synthesizing of everything: Identity by
identifying.
All thought-processes, whether stimulated by objectivity or by
subjectivity, must finally become a spacious metaphor revealing
the whole cosmos and everything in it as interwoven and
interdependent. Its apparent duality and separateness lie in our
own concept or in ourselves—a delegation of transference to
become increative.
Any synthesis we make is of selected parts redesigned as a
whole, never a sufficient consummation. Our processes of
cognition are arbitrary or casual because nothing is presented
as logical sequence. This does not infer illogicality because we
do not comprehend either relationship or nexus. Whether it is
our purpose to link with utilitarianism a correct sequence of
relationships, or whether to be more audacious and translate our
valuations into an ideal of greater reality—is our choice.
Ideas of an abstract God are just as anthropomorphic as any
other, but more back-dated.
Mathematics are a form of human logic—an arbitrary thesis which
of itself evolves nothing and proves only possibility.
The seeing of an object is the presence of an idea in thought…
Amidst the chaos of spacio-temporal phenomena we are
sense-blasted, shaken to our very depths by arguments of good
and evil—"Do that, don't do this!": adumbrations of the
conceivability of our immanence is lost.
Darken your room, shut the door, empty your mind. You are still
in great company. The numen and your genius, with all their
media, and a host of elementals and ghosts of your dead
loves—ARE THERE! They need no light by which to see, no
words by which to speak, and no motive for communication except
your own purely formed desire.
Not what we believe, but how deeply and sincerely
is the question: without belief nothing can inhere.
Relationing, not religion, is the need; religion has always a
wrong self-righteousness.
Many roads have been fashioned yet none lead towards Self.
Therefore, when in company, take the eclectic Path; when alone,
take the oblique to the known.
God-Soul-Body has no more precedency than the reflector, the
reflective and reflected. They are interdependent, dependent,
and independent—becoming spatial in space, alternating in time,
combining and separating endlessly; seemingly casual as the way
of the Life-force.
We cannot fathom more than the believable—that is our level of
ability—but it does not preclude our feeling more.
Euphony is formulated sound. Wisdom cannot articulate in a flood
of words but may express itself in some resounding word-graph to
cipher a mystic meaning.
See that your in-breathings are of purity so that your
out-breathings are not foul. I have indrawn all foulness, but my
exhalations are not that bad. As human beings, all we
absorb—psychically or bodily—forms its own excretion.
The rationale of our beliefs and acceptances usually spring from
pretentiousness or misconception, never as compensation for our
failures. Therefore, do not believe in God because you have
failed to realize yourself, but believe in God in order to
realize that concept in yourself. Even though the first stimulus
comes from without, there is in this way more likelihood of
response.
Everywhere the juke-box wails "I got rhythm, I got music…!" and
everyone asserts that he is as good as everyone else.
Yes!—rhythm with what? The blind-worm cycle? And as good as who?
No man is equal to the gods, neither his soul nor his better
self. If superior to another, the virtuous man does not state
it, concerned as he is with his inferiority.
From the phenomenal-alogical world we infer our paralogism,
hence our fictions are provable, or not, by such casuistry. Our
fiction of geometry must therefore be our method of proving
fictional evaluations.
From the amoral phenomenal world we form our ethics. If (as
usually stated) it were a virtue to cultivate one's talents and
endowments as a means of self-realization, does the natural liar
become the best or worst of liars? The answer is that there is a
'free point' where such imaginative ability may be transferred
to artistry, i.e., social validity. Means, methods, and
technique may fault or determine the ethical quality of
expression. The only pragmatic sociability of things is
aesthetic truth. If a thing is beautiful we are with it.
Accept the illusive phenomenal world as the reality of conative
hyle and sensational flesh opportuning. Accept the introspective
domain as the abstract procreative, predestinating, and
equally real. And so make things that give…
Our desiring causes a necessity. We cannot otherwise want,
conceive, make or cause necessity unless we already have it
within us, and we can evoke that thing only by functional means,
i.e., by believing in a 'meaning' which we read into it. The
phenomenal is the positivistic fiction of thought, the absolute
negation of reality. Therefore, the Cosmos—being the negative
form of Absoluteness—we (I) invert the concept, either accepting
it as positive (real) and being negative to it, or being
positive to it, as if negative, or wish some other mentation
equally valid. Then, the magician's stance is in 'as if', and
presuppositional.
The phenomenal world (not 'as it is in itself') is the only
'real' world we know and is entirely apparent, neither
explaining nor revealing purpose, meaning etc. We imitate,
compare, receive spurious impressions, and try to co-ordinate
differences from which we make a synthesis and call it
'knowledge'—mere pretensions of partitive impressions and
personalizations of truth with or without intentional or
affective experience. This method of co-relating constitutes our
Ego of flabby presuppositions—a concretion of preferential
values determinative of validities and abstractions as good,
bad, indifferent, etc., from a world of indifferents. But the
real world, the actual 'thing in itself', is nearer—e.g., Ego as
the subjective and only reality that is not a pretentious
supposition. Thus, any personalization, image, induction,
deduction, or transfer from objectivity (or subjectivity), will
become valid as appearance. Therefore it is epistemological and
ontological, made within Ego; its law (must be)
unnecessitarianism, until I so determine, for this world I
so make…
…Within my right hand is allness, within my left—nothingness.
Crumbling both within my fingers there shall spring forth all
the yous in thatness, or not, as I so will. Belief is the lever
and fulcrum to lift the world—to shift the axis of being.
We have within us knowledge of all we have experienced yet we
cannot cognize it unless re-lived. What we have within us
we cannot realize unless stimulated by some experience from
without: a rule of regurgitation.
Man leads two lives (two-faced mongrel), imaginary and more or
less real. He has marked preferences for his suppositions; he
fears or resents everything that makes him feel inferior and
therefore grasps everything that gives him a sense of
superiority. Man, as standing unpretentiously for what he is, is
inferior to none—beast, man or God; which makes the whole thing
an absurdity. Man lies to defeat his defects; he deceives a few,
but himself most; paradoxically, because he is actually far more
than his pretences. He who 'pretentiously' says he is God, says
far less than the truth. His syntax is at fault… he is only what
he formulates as be-livable as God.
The all-wise mind permits us any absurdity; yet power is given
to all self-believers whether for good or evil. Should it worry
Cosmos if we act the Goat, or fall, in our vicious circle?
Therefore, believe in yourself altruistically and your
contingencies will be equal to your ability.
The net of Space enfolds us, its meshes are close when our
contraceptives are evil. Here is hilarity: we prefigure
ourselves! What do you expect to be, in inverse ratio to your
pretensions?
Man is consanguineous to all creation, his likeness is
everywhere. The Universe, Sun, Moon, Earth, all they germinate,
and all metempiric 'beings', serve or succour him at some time:
all—his heritage and the everlasting past into
which man functionally prolapses. Life is maintained by eternal
impact and convertibility, a metamorphosis for perfection of
function. Man has become a sur-mammal mainly by the form and
perfection of his hands: his best shape permits his renaissance
to perfection as man; but even his most ideal form is deficient
for any kind of Godhood.
But man is also something of a stasis, for his forgetfulness
ever exceeds memory, and his summation is always
half-knowledge. Yes, not even the half of it. We know little
or nothing of the aftermath and ultimate of thoughts and deeds.
Whether amalgamating, exhausting or developing, nothing ceases,
but changes in its form of existence and eventually returns to
the instigator… thus we increase or diminish.
The defect of all our conceptions is that they manifest a
feeling for particular forms and show little feeling for the
whole. What we embrace is obvious stuff, suggesting much or
little—seldom is it subtle, illusive, or suggestive of the
spacious, unplumbed, circumambient abyss we never succeed in
enclosing, but which encloses us as an Identity in time-space.
Man has already fallen exhausted at the foot of a mountain of
littlenesses, facts, figures, knowledge, nominalism, categories,
etc., which have served only to excuse and to fuel the miseries
of greed. So, every believer in Art, Beauty, Mystery and Magic
is my brother. They at least are great geocentricists,
anthropocentricists. Their reasons and conclusions do not refute
their logic or syllogisms, having one Truth only. They do not
fly from experience and lapse into faith because of failure.
They believe in the Ego, always guess their Ideas or await
inspiration from the Soul.
God: either a perspective predicament or the becoming potential
self personalism, when as 'attitude' is the evaluated
(suppositive attributes), has little tenure (tenurial form of
duration in Ego): (e.g.) Our word media of conveying meanings
i.e., desires seeking substance, neither entices, converts,
enacts, only conveys back little or nil. (e.g.) God ex Mind ex
Ego as alogical, responds by uninterpreted parallel
cyphers: an impersonated sympathetic synthesis hidden within
meaning (as Self to self).
(God) nothing as neither is never either and neither-neither:
either knows neither by neither-eitherness: So (as if I) neither
knoweth either... therefore when I so make an uncypherable
geometric cryptograph
it is a 'neither', i.e., unrelatable to thatness becomes an
either (unpredicting) i.e., true form, as such, must seek
function from its own thisness and will reform substantially
original meaning (prediction from).
Dreams show us a vent which we have not explored. Ego is our
only reality—of which we know nothing. Inspiration comes in
flashes but experience is constant.
The abstract-actual is a belief, and, being believed is true;
therefore, suppositions believed become substantiated by
intangible hyle. There is only infinite actuality, and truth is
what we make it: our inexact juxtapositing, blending with muddy
interferences, baffle us and our inherences.
Zos spake thus: fornicatus benedictus! The best things
are obtained by spunk. But this method of copulation emphasizes
merely one's separateness by means of another—and not reality
as-it-is-in-itself. It commands us to feel freely and deeply
without restraint until worn out with the effort for unity.
Still, what would you in a world of limited sex? No scrotum
outlasts the morning…
I am a Pantheist 'as if', because I can conceive God in You and
You in Me—a new Anthropolatory: God in us all and in all
potencies. We cannot adopt the 'as if' and love all
things as ourselves, but we can love ourselves 'as if' all
things.
The principles of Ethics could be Pan-integral, for any
essentially 'logical proposition' is Ethical (i.e., equitable to
everything else).
Life has many doors and there are many different Heavens. Death
is one such door.
All knowledge becomes good or evil. Our wonderment at
spatial creativeness striving to glean or grasp something beyond
the dimensional is more proliferant of significant Ideas and
more effacing of low levels than any other form of 'conceiving'.
Any stimulus may produce almost any response rectified by its
functional direction and our ability of expression. Whether
stimulus is from 'within or without' is beside the point:
the body is a medium from a chain of medianimity that reflects
what is put into it and reacts in a manner predetermined by the
capability of the medium. All kinds of matter are permeable by
other suitable kinds and energy is always either entranced or
active in matter which, when saturated by it, formulates,
differentiates and separates—and entity becomes…
Physiology and consciousness (body and Ego) are phenomena that
occur, not as casually connective but as conjunctional
all the time (in some indirect manner). Philosophy should awaken
to the fact that science itself works on philosophical
presuppositions but is itself no better off with its endless
contradictions and diverse 'isms', often little more than
'idioms' of a 'particular'.
The flesh inherits all things.
The last act man will forego is his sadism.
Human inventiveness: Ego and Sin.
All virtues are expendable and dissipate easily, whereas evil is
ever near and plethoric.
The beginning of Wisdom: "Wouldst thou be virtuous? Then search
out thine own evil" (Epictetus) [Footnote: Stoic philosopher ca.
60–110 A.D.] Thence the Stoic diverts his own evil to combat
other evil. Yes, and cast his bread upon the waters, without
thought of return: what hurt shall accrue? Virtue by stealth,
fearless condemnation of evil.
Our significance: a virus or an axial shift could destroy
mankind totally.
Consciousness may result from a reaction to infinite impacts.
If we could define all the conceivable connections that a
concept could imply we would have a complete definition of it.
But what is a concept? It is essentially hypothetical and
related to concepts; a visualized phantasm transcribed into
word-image as a 'method' of cognition. All mentation is a
special form of cognition, therefore any conceptual value within
its own context is not true universally, but is true,
conatively, as means or media.
Truth is a bogey; our question should be not whether true or
not, but—is this a 'means of expression'? (the dynamic tempo 'as
now'). Everything is a directional degree of functional purpose
seeking 'means' of conative ability; therefore, if we can
discover the correct medium for anything
whatsoever—abstract or concrete—manifestation will follow.
The magician is Inscrutable: the verification of all
inconceivable impossibilities which 'need not be'… but he IS.
Did not great Satyros tell me: "I am with you always, your
way".
A thing produced by any thing is as natural (or unnatural) as
that thing; what it does not reveal (either way) is latent
within it. Therefore, if 'Nature' produced the butterfly and
man, both have in them, revealed or not, each other. Therefore,
whatever man is, he has within him whatever caused him.
There are words of everlasting luster, sound sequences that may
be alogical yet as near to Truth as it is ever possible to get.
Certain sequences of sounds and signs, all of which have untrue
meanings—could set this world aflame.
The shifting meanings of our intertwisted nomenclature, inexact
references and ambiguities, have the virtue of spatial span and
are evocative by selective expressionism having an emotional
quality which gives aesthetic validity, whereas more formal
phrasing would convey far less.
Truisms and generalizations are concretions of discursive
cognition, dangerous outside their own framework. Hence the
magician uses such means for expressive evocation, etc. Normal
language is concerned with conveying to others deceptions,
hopes, fears, knowledge, desires, etc., to cause changes and
enactments, whereas magical language's entire concern is to
obtain from the subconsciousness answers to requests (another
form of prayer) by primitive symbolism. It is believed that such
intercommunication is possible only by cryptographic symbols: a
transference of the intuitive to the tactual.
Man is a very mean measure of all he is liable to conceive, and
of the forgotten residue of his experiences. All truths are
dimensional (often of two) and always directional, but what we
often discount or overlook is the elasticity and tolerance of
forms (as now), and that at any time and place anything may be
true or not. Relativity is no more true than not—therefore a
thing is equal to its degree (in direction).
Our factor as 'constant as', is our belief as synchronizer (to
instant instance). Neither time nor space actually expand, they
merely alter relations by formal stages. We are those changes
and relations, contracting, individuating, etc.
If we constantly circumambulated the span of our orbit we would
never intersect or retrace our previous footsteps. We would be
traversing a Sisyphean eternity; everything would be changed,
including our form of apprehension: our constants, our
differences to… and our ability to copulate somewhere.
Ultimately, we do not so much desire to know the meanings of
things as what they mean to us, but to know what they mean in
themselves, as reality. The Stoic shares reality by tolerant
acceptances. Such a quizzical attitude receives answers
which—whether true or not—become the embellishments of life… as
appreciating beauty where it concerns us. A thing that appears
repulsive and ugly does so only in ratio to our degree of
tolerance. A worm to a worm is beautiful—and it is unnecessary
for us to turn worm-like to know it—we are already too
worm-like.
Nothing in Nature has been so maligned, castigated, wordily
mutilated and destroyed, as man. Actually, I have my tongue in
my cheek for I know that whatever has been derogated of him—I am
worse. Man is man's only menace—and his only salvation. Man has
little or not feeling for self-criticism or for criticism by
others, and when 'fate' lands a heavy kick, his reactions are… !
Unheeded, the Ids stutter their meanings as desires and function
through forms, and we shape our ideas by 'as though',
transforming our realities through our imperfect perceptions of
them. Hence, Desire, Will, Belief, as functional, are more
contrary than harmonious, the Ids always triumph, hiding our
true function; they never die, only diversify. If you cannot
stomach them in one way, you will in another. Truth is the ethos
of our vast emotional complex reared on the structure of the
Ids.
We can predict man's conceits, a new variety of mentation, of
analysis, etc. Yet none can predict man's next form (if any),
but only possible reversions or higher general levels towards
that which has been already reached. What is not perceived
cannot concern us, although man generally is endlessly
improvable. Man may be a stasis—sufficient: geometry exhausted.
Man is the miracle of creation, there is nothing better than
flesh, i.e., flesh at its best. It is our reactions that are at
fault.
The thesis of Karma is the only rational explanation of
fate—by abstract or other thought. Only the all magnanimous
Stoic sayeth: All suffering is self inflicted.
I hope, very modestly, to remain eternally 'I am I'…
Having realized our reality, its potency, its vast heritage and
the delegated supremacy of Ego—promising the surpassing of all
limitations—we blink, close our eyes, seek for all littlenesses
and harness our desires to the corrupt outgrowths of our Ids. Is
there no antidote for self-poisoning from our substitute
realities? There is only stupendous Reality to embrace: cease
doubting! Death is a relatively small event in living—less and
less in your infinity, your reality.
No excogitation but instinctive guessing is still our best guide
in the labyrinths.
When we appreciate vibrantly the vast significance of all
creation, however small our understanding—then we are endowed
with a measure of significance.
All experiences are sensations by impacts. Man is basically
dominated by his Ids (passions) and is entirely determined by
his loves and hates. He would remain either static or destroy
himself except that the a priori pushes him, willy-nilly,
through his sense of morality and social convention. There is
compromise.
Dialectical and rational: The acceptance of all things,
including Nature and our own small contra nature, everything as
reality without reservations. Unfortunately we cannot swallow
all this at one time, our form and aptitude preclude it.
All forms of reality appear to exist within their own rights.
How much they derive from and rely upon unknown sources is
guesswork. As a general observation, we can assert that
everything acts as a means to everything else and that whatever
is operating is of greater intelligence than ourselves. But,
however much is disclosed to us is, comparatively, a mere iota
of the whole. Everything is activated by a mind greater than its
medium.
Self-masochistic-sadism: Love thyself as thy neighbour.
The law of genius is its own lawlessness of truth, its own
inspiration; of originality, its own necessity; of conation, its
own spontaneity; of Nature, its own individuation, etc. In fact,
work from your own alogical 'ism'.
If we prohibit others from thinking for us, and if we have
little capacity for thinking let us posit our own belief, 'as
if', and things in thought will think for us. Any part of a
whole derives its ethos from the whole, and when so posited will
function as a whole. Much of our mentation is a 'thing in
thought thinking', so, go to sleep… And, when dead, all our
bloody ideographs live for us…
I could not repent, I could not pray, or ask forgiveness, so
gave others repentance, prayers, forgiveness, and repaid God
also. How? By revealing beauty where not yet seen. I know
nothing more ageing than 'logicism'—bothering to be logical.
Concepts that have no sensuous form (reasoning, thinking, etc.)
spring from a latent geometry of our mentation: our geometry is
the silhouette of a priori.
The only evidence that we were, are, or will be of God is
'presentient prehensiveness', for what cannot be conceived
cannot be existent 'as now', but will be… so I bid you replace
time by your immanence.
…And I, unhappy man, saw the 'energy ethos' rise from my dying
cat, a dark astral, a reversed and inverted shadow. Dead stuff,
the body, like tarnished food that by re-dressing cannot
simulate again the magic aptitude of opportunity's stolen Life.
We came out of eternity and absoluteness into time. Is there a
returning? And what of our sentiment, the vast rag-bag of our
emotional range—must these trivia re-enter? Do all our strivings
and ideals count as nought? As the lover of flesh and humanity I
prefer Time to Eternity.
The supreme defeat is resignation. The triumph over death and
all things is by fearless desire. There is not one thing obtains
in this world except by effort and struggle to render desire.
The born genius is only spending the virtue of previous effort.
The Gods do unto you whatsoever you do unto others; also, what
you do unto yourself will be becoming to you.
Beauty appeals because it is the most rational thing we know.
Truth as the sentient, and Reality in all its forms, shapes a
quadra and presents to view a spatial quinary: two profiles,
many three-quarters, full face and backside. All theotheses give
some sort of view, none the entire view, but a synthesis of all
philosophy would give the most acceptable. Hence I accept not
the circumviatory view of things but our obliqueness as
essential for any stance; our metamorphosis is by such
reorientation from the stock-pile of acceptances…
We must constantly create our duality—and constantly do so,
willy-nilly.
Anti-climax of our purpose by allegory: the Potter and his wheel
mean more to me than all the religions; he works from his
necessity for the necessary, often giving exhilarating beauty
from himself to others.
Gods, Soul and everything is as flesh, whatever the
textures, and as concrete as our own. We are ever terms of
existence whatever our fluxing consciousness permits. Those
dupes who deny their flesh are either drug-sodden or
self-hypnotized, have simply failed their flesh, afraid of life,
would beg their sustenance and the mind has tired of them.
They live as under a stone with their stinking theses. Again, I
state that although all their wisdom and inaccurate visions are
from the same source they are far less than when accepting the
wisdom and beauty of the 'body' to which they owe everything.
Life seems a lengthy process of waiting for the materialization
of oneself as representative of, and equal to, our ideal or
desire, because we are ever as we are—the realized
incarnation of our last self, forever…
Some laziness has this merit: while so, we are seldom predatory
and interfering, and, perhaps like many, indifferent to much,
thinking that success these days is no more desirable than
failure.
The law is so contemptible that its chief service should be to
estimate its injustice.
The ancestral sea: constant ebb and flow, and ever
causal—spawning. So like us, yet unstable with ever changing
mood out-masquerading all masqueraders, all women; terrible, or
as beautiful as crushed sapphires, glittering. It goes on for
ever with serum-soaked ebb and flow.
To whom the Ids obey—now is the moment when immanence is
imminent.
Whatever the nexus between things may be, the effect is… a
constant changing conjunctiveness.
Nothing enters the mind save from experience. And how far back
and forgotten the experiencing? And how far forward goeth the
further experiencing? Is it some vicious circle of one
experience, infinitely split, re-experiencing… so much?
Living according to any preconceived thesis or ideal may be as
crippling as living up to any worn out shibboleth, cliché, or
similar absurdity; the disguises of the Ids are many. Therefore
the Stoic adopts his own virtue and behaviourisms to which (by
singleness) he automatically responds. His instincts healthily
revived, he smells out all falsity and fallacy. He does what he
so will and takes all responsibility—thus the virtue. Do as
you please, to whom the pleasing is the law. Only what you
enact has sincerity and the potent form of affection.
Between all things are strata of experience, stimulating by
similarity the tendency to remember and to inherit. We emerge
from one thing into another leaving a crypto-psychism of our
knowledge which, ghost-like, lives on, adumbrating our
fatalities whereby our past constantly re-enters us. What we
reactivate is determined by our belief, will, desire, and
action. Were I a vampire what somnambulists would I awaken!
When the great fatigue overtakes me, and life and myself tire of
the poor media, judgment after death will be my least worry. Our
good and evil live on; expiation will come with re-birth.
How much I spawn!—as wind-blown, how little fertile.
When people tell me they have experienced everything… I gasp!
What they really mean is this: these are the things they
have known—usually of poverty-stricken unities and frustrations.
From childhood until death we seek and enjoy a substitutive
reality, unwittingly making a parallel. We instinctively imitate
the fact that we are the substitute of a greater reality—ever
seeking compensation by substitution, for being substitute; a
double paradox.
By relativeness we are as diatoms emerging from the ooze of
becoming. Likewise by relativeness we are greater than anything
we conceive or know. Our accomplishment is in our greater
reality as individuals (by originality).
If the Absolute is absolute, nothing is impossible; which
implies that arbitrarily without necessity—the Absolute, like
Jove, may take pleasure in contact with human flesh... why not?
If we are to have the miraculous what then is more wonderful
than giving dimensions to infinities?
We seldom realize that life is a constant dramatic interaction
of our visible unions and separations, motivated by our
invisible unities and dissolutions. We awake to further
indeterminateness.
The blind still lead the blind. How frustrated are the
materialists in that they cannot envisage the manner of the
interaction of life on matter... thus resorting to the
absurdities of blind forces and accidental by-products! What
knowledge Nature has disclosed they have abused in destructive
beastliness—indeed, we all await annihilation. So, why should
greater knowledge be given? Man has reached his full
foulness—has become himself a blind force in an accidental
by-product and, like Judas, betrays us for a few pieces of
silver.
For those who fear reality, life becomes belated and a
staleness—an ever re-living of yesterdays in phantasy.
The fractional second is the path I would open... Magic is but
one's natural ability to attract without asking.
Mathematically, square and circle are zero forms—the symbols of
eternity as 'time-space'; all shapes are their partition,
combination, variation or asymmetry. The square is the rectified
and utilitarian form of the circle; zero, the symbol of eternity
as 'time-space'.
Life is the anticipated situation that never happens; our
expectancies create a foetal wish that is never birthed.
Where beauty and virtue are wanting, everything will be wanting
but hate.
Man ever aberrates—even his normalities!—mainly to
compensate for his deficiencies, and often founds a shadow-world
that accepts and reflects the assured survival of his weakness.
What stupidities benight the assertion that anything was
created unrelated to all else; if things were entirely separate,
complete, they would be static and quickly exhausted. Life,
growth, change, into and out of things to all possible
transmutations. All things serve each other, willingly or
otherwise. Yet we live by every means a partitiveness and make
our ignorance as permanent as possible... and nothing seems more
lasting than a lie.
We are millions of yesterdays, and what appears autogenetic is
the work of unknown mediators who permit, or not, our acts by
the mysterious chemistry of our believing.
Beauty alone reaches simplicity because it is basically
'economy'. Envy overadorns, paints, ostentatiously clothes and
transfers to mode. The naked figure is a more fluid and truthful
beauty: hence to marry a 'face' is often to marry a fiction. Our
work and behaviour is the truer portrait, the 'values' we live
and give by.
When thought dissociates itself from the correspondences and
gradations between contrasting things, these will re-form
abundantly; final representation is an asymmetrical balance.
This 'seeing strangely' is the level of our genius.
So, rightly or wrongly, I think this: what was once free,
casual, and formless seeks arbitrary laws, is precipitated into
time and dimensional form with definite functional purpose and
direction about which we can only guess—to realize all
probabilities within definite limits—unreached yet.
...That wonderful first glance at anything which is fleeting
but, if caught, suspires into great Art.